READ THIS : FOR ONCE AND FOR ALL

I just really don't give a fuck how much time you are going to leave for me or how damn long I have to wait before things can go back to the way the were. Seriously. We've already been through so much, nothing can tear us apart. So stop being emo. Yes, I know you have Post Natal Blues, and depression or whatever, but that's no excuse for being childish and immature and selfish. You think you're the only person suffering? How about your family? Or best yet, how about me? I've come so far with you, holding on to you, loving you no matter what happened....before you do any damn stupid thing, think about me first. And whatever you do, all your hating this and that, it's NOT helping anything. You're just making things worse. So for God's sake, LISTEN TO ME for once and TRUST ME. STOP thinking I'll run away with some other girl...SERIOUSLY !!!

Drawing Day :)

Felt abit unwell today and vomitted abit, after that I went to rest somemore before getting up at 11 and going to Clementi for Mac. Yes, I'm not well and I eat Mac. How smart of me. Went home and chatted with my darling awhile on MSN before I started up on finishing the work for Gu Gu. Did alot of sketches, drafts and got my entire hand black with pencil lead for about 5 hours. Wahaha. After that, I posted a few samples of my work on Facebook and had my friends comment on it before my parents returned from work and we went out for dinner at Orchard. Returned home at 11 and am super tired and I have stupid extra lessons in school tmr....zzzzzzzzzzz =.=
Anyways, gonna go sleep alr...super worn out today....nites laopo...I love you so much...muacks :)

Happy Holidays :)

Woke up at 7 plus this morning cos I couldn't sleep for no apparent reason. Went for a nice long bathe before packing the drawing samples for the "Thank You" card into my file and taking the bus down to AMK for breakfast. Initially wanted to have a nice hot plate of carrot cake but the store didn't open today so I went to BreadTalk to buy a bread to eat. After that I took the bus to Compass and walked over to Gu Gu's house. Reached at about 11. Showed her the drawings and happily, my darling loved it. HINT DARLING : your birthday present's going to be something like that :)
We talked about Gu Gu's new job, and laughed at how I imagined she would screw up the programmes and my darling only made matters worse by telling me she was going to do sales in the near future. I took another few minutes to explain just how not-so-easy sales would be and we laughed about it again. Then the baby cried and it was breastfeeding time, and as usual, he decided to poo just after that and we had to change his diapers. Happily for us though, the baby was not in the urine squirting mood today ( did I mention he tried to shoot me twice with his urine but failed at both attempts? ) and everything went smotthly. Started to get hungry at 2 and decided that taking a short hibernation nap would cure it and it did, temporarily. Got hungry again half an hour after waking up. Stayed till about 5 before leaving. Bought myself a nice cold bottle of Season's Ice Lemon Tea ( darling, don't get jealous ) and wanted to grab a bite at either Mac or LJS but both were rather full, so I decided that the food would have to wait till Thursday after my extra lessons. Took the train home and fell asleep on it, but luckily didn't oversleep. Went home to find that my mum was still at work so I went over to her workplace and waited for her. Now at home talking to my darling in MSN.
Darling, thanks for today :) Love you so much, dear. Muacks <3

Short post to my silly darling

Darling baby, seeing how well you adjust to having this baby in your Life makes me not so worried, even relieved to a certain extent that you have come to face reality and I really am proud of you for being such a strong person. Honestly, if it were me, I really wouldn't be able to take it. yes, your aunt and mum tell me you think too much at times and get overly emotional over certain things but I can understand. Having been through so much, it is definitely natural to undergo certain scares and uncertainty. But of course, I will reward you for being such a strong girl. I promise that no matter what, you can always turn to me for help as I will always be there for you. Don't be afraid that I will leave one day. My love to you remains strong and steadfast. I've made this desicion to be with you even when I had all the chance and the right reasons to leave and I won't regret. Trust me laopo. My hand only wants to hold your hand. My lips only want to kiss your lips. My ****** only wants to enter your ******. oops censored..but you got my meaning, I'm sure. Silly darling. Anything just talk to laogong k. Laogong can be trusted with your secrets and everything else that you don't want others to know. Jiayous k. 2 more weeks to going out with you and 1 month plus to our 1 year anniversary :) Gambatte :) Wo ai ni laopo :) Muacks <3

I never can't accept him. I just worry for you. Worry you can't take it by yourself. Worry you anyhow think and do silly things. You are the most important in my heart. How will I ever bear to leave you. But why do you always see the negative side of things. All along, you never trusted me enough to tell me everything about you that's why you end up in this situation yourself. Blame no one. You brought this upon yourself. What I'm trying to do for you now is try to release you from everything that binds you down. I want you to break free and open up yourself to me. Tell me what's on your mind, what you want to do, what you want to know. Everything. Be the girl I once knew again. Please. Talk to me. Don't give me your emo shit and leave me wondering and worrying about you. I love you darling. Hold on to me, never let me go.

Random post on current events

Darling, funny why just now you asked me that question on MSN. Honestly, I was going to tell you that on no account was I going to let you keep the baby or even if you had to give birth to him, give it to the dad but seeing that you love him so much, I guess I'll just have to learn to love him as my own child. I talked to my bros, they told me to take Kenneth as an adopted child, but seriously? When I know who the dad is? But as I promised to you before, I'll still take him as mine. All I need is you to give me abit more time to accept him. I'm really sorry, but sometimes late at night alone, I'll still think of the past. When I see our photos. Our videos. Our messages. And our Facebook posts.Think of what we used to do, how we used to go out together till late. I miss it. I really miss those times. From the start till the end. From the time we stead, to the times you dropped your "bombs", to the time I first cooked for you, to the time you told me about your past, to the time I was filled with revenge for what was done to you, to the time you slept with brendon, to the time where things became sweet and loving and intimate, and to now when you become a mum. I missed alot of first times with you. Yes, you're my first girl. I gave you my first kiss, my first intimate hug, my first intimacy, but lost out on being the first to make you feel really loved and first to have a child with you. Two major first times, and I lost out on that.
I know I promised you that I'll be strong. I will. I just want to let you know that no matter what, laogong will still love you and support you and be always there for you when you need him. For you, I will be strong. And won't always start thinking of the past. I know it's hard, I put on a fake front to show that I'm fine but I'm not. I miss you. I worry about you. I'm scared to lose you. And everytime you start to think wildly, I get more worried and think more worse things than you do. I just really love you alot and honestly, feel so unfair that you are in this situation. Yes, I did think of asking Brendon to take the kid but after tonight's talk I realised you really loved the kid alot, and as much as I want you to be the girl I once knew, I can't bear to take the baby away from you. Our plan, I hope it really works. I'm just missing you terribly. When can you be mine again? You say 6 months time. I don't mind waiting. But really, will you have more time for me? I know you're tired. Deep inside you, you still want so much for the past to come back. So do I. Maybe even more than you. But what's done is already done. You made a mistake. I made a mistake. This is the price to pay.
If only I could turn back time, but it's already too late for regrets.
So from today on, I won't think about the past anymore. It's gone forever. From this moment on, I'll just love you with all my heart and give you the best love, care, guidance and support you can ever get from a guy. I'm still here, running the final 100m of the race with you. The finish line is just ahead. Don't lose hope. Be strong. You've already come so far. Don't give up. Don't give up on yourself. Don't give up on me.
I still love you so much, darling. You'll always be the one and only irreplacable baby princess in Max Loo's heart. I mean it. Love you. Muacks :)

Gu Gu overcomes P.N.Blue with Yang Guo's help

No no, P.N Blue is not another new Korean boyband nor do they have any similarities to C.N Blue. P.N Blue is Post Natal Blue, a symptom of depression that most women suffer from after birth. And Gu Gu, like everyone else, has abit of it. Luckily, with my help and encouragement, we sat down today and have a nice quiet, emotional, good talk and everything turned out smoothly. Thanks laopo for holding on and still being so strong. Just want you to know, no matter what happens, just feel free to talk to laogong k? We'll solve the problem together, like we always used to do in the past. I will always be there for you no matter what, holding your hand and walking with you till the end. Even though you may find yourself in a changed environment, one thing is for sure, laogong's love to you will never change yea.
Jiayous k darling laopo. I love you so so much. Muack muack :)

Filming day..Sha Hen Da!!! lols

Did filming for my school project today at HY's house before going to AMK for a final shoot. But first, when I was on my way to HY's house, I had to take the train to Jurong East to change another train to Yishun. Then when I reached J.East, I realised that there was no train service cos they were repairing the track. How very smart. There was a shuttle bus to the next station where I could take the train to Yishun but the queue was madness. Rushing for time, I took the train back down to City Hall before changing train to Yishun. All these while carrying my camera bag and all.
Finally arrived and started filming. Happily, my darling wife made the journey less boring for me by messaging me. She was going to see a chinese doctor at Parkway ( lol...I never trust them) and she later said she had to eat vegetables and I laughed. Bought lunch later and went to HY's house to film and had alot of stupid disagreements as usual. We argued about almost everything, like where the camera view should be, or who should say and act what but ended up laughing at each other...especially the blooper shots about " Sha Hen Da! " which can be viewed on my Facebook profile later at night. After we were done, we took bus 854 to AMK. Cos HY said it went there. Apparently he was super wrong and we ended up somewhere near Bedok instead!!! Took 25 back down to AMK for the final shot and ended. Cancelled the originally planned game of pool cos I had to go see my darling and cos we were all tired.
However, my darling was tired too and she asked me to go over tomorrow instead. So I called my dad and he picked me up and I went home. Went to toilet and did major business and now updating this blog and talking to darling online :)
Laopo, be strong ok. I know life is very difficult for you now and you want your old life back. Silly. You know it's impossible what. Learn to let go of the past laopo or you'll never move on. No matter what, I will always be by your side to encourage and support you, as well as caring and loving you at the same time. Jiayous k laopo? Wo ai ni! Muack :)

The marathon is almost ending

Dun know what to say....after so many things have happened, my mind just feels totally confused and in no mood for anything at all. I just feel normal only when I'm with you. After I leave, everything sucks. The places that seemed so familiar to me just sudeenly become so different when you're not by my side. So many things have changed.....but still my love remains to you. Laopo, I know you're suffering. I know you don't like this change of events. Neither do I, honestly. Until now, like you, there's still a part of me that can't let go the past memories of us together. But what's done cannot be reversed. What we can do now is to face the future bravely and depend on nothing else except for our families, our determination and love for each other. Don't give up, baby. You've come this far. Remember the marathon I told you about this afternoon? You're almost finishing it ok. Just abit more and you will reach the finish line. Cannot forget k. Jiayous. Anything laogong will be here for you okays? I love you darling. Muacks :)

HAPPY 11 MONTHS!!! :)

Laopo darling, we 11 months together in a relationshipe le...1 more month to a year :) So fast right? And so many thing happen that as though that it is a dream, just that I cannot wake up from it. These few days without you is really hell, and last night during the bachelor night party with the guys, the songs I sing in karaoke is all the songs I sing to you and it makes me sort of sad and happy at the same time. Sad cos so many thing have changed and that it may not happen again, and happy that at least I had those times in the past to cherish and treasure, and to keep it locked securely in my memory.
Last time when you stead with me, I keep asking you why you can't forget about JM, and I got pissed and angry that after you with me, you'll still think about him. I even asked you how hard it is to let go. Now I understand the feeling. To love a person so madly that it leaves such a deep impression that is unforgettable and almost impossible to let go. Just like us. In the past, we almost met up everyday, went out till late, did alot of wild and crazy things. Just now I dropped by Dhoby with my friend to buy something, and I walked past NE Line, and I looked at the train stations. Looked at Harbourfront, Outram Park, Farrer Park, and finally, Sengkang. And I thought of the times we used to meet up and go movies together, and how I would wait for you, sms you to complain about the noisy aeroplanes and the heat, then when we go out start deciding what to do and where to go. Or when you work, how I would wait for you and walk all over Farrer Park or go to Popular. And whenever we quarrel, we always meet up at Vivo and talk things over and patch back again. Really miss those times, and together with the knowledge that it may never happen again, I seriously got super depressed. I just hope that everything will return to normal after this one month of madness and everything will be just the way it was.
Just hope it isn't my wishful thinking only. Hope it really can come true. But no matter what laopo, be strong ok. I know you're a strong girl and you can do it. Be strong for the baby, for yourself and for us. I'm trying my best too, darling. Really. Anyways, I never expected honestly that my first relationship would be this eventful but never once have I ever regretted. Baby, you turned me from a boy into a man. You taught me how I should love and treat you, something I never did before. So here, I want to wish you a very happy 11th anniversary and thaks for everything, all the sweet memories of this 11 months. You're the best, you're my one and only baby princess wife and I love you so so much! Wo ai ni! Muacks :)

Yang Guo attends Men's Party with Chin Ho and Zhong Han

Darling, I really missing you so much..... Even just now at the outing when we play pool and sing song....I just remember the times we used to have with each other. All the songs I sing is the ones I used to sing to you...really missing those times...will it ever happen again? I miss you :( Wan faster see you....can't take it le :(

Note to my strong darling

I miss my baby darling....really....laopo, just wondering how am I going to get through 4 days without seeing you, without holding your hand, hugging you...hais....I..I don't know what to write...I just miss you so much...so much has happened, that even has me taken by shock....you say everything will change, and that I may change my feelings for you...laopo...I won't. Maybe future things we won't be certain, but just treasure now and I'm sure that everything will be just as sweet as now, or maybe even better :)
Jiayous ok, darling. You're a strong girl and I'm proud to be your laogong. Muacks :) Wo ai ni :)

Yang Guo and Gu Gu embraces new life with her baby :)

Stomach cramps and not having periods for long periods of time can lead to unbelievable outcomes. And after a long period of that, I brought my poor darling to the clinic at Sengkang. I waited outside and when I went in, the doctor told me, "she's pregnant" . I swooned. Although I was expecting it, I still felt giddy after really hearing it. The doctor called the ambulance and I accompanied her to KK Women and Children Hospital. Did up the formalities  and after everything was done, went in to see her. She was ok, thankfully, except for the occasional stomach cramps that made her grab my hand in pain and made me feel so hurt to see her like that.
Her family came soon after and they went in to see her and after that, we talked and asked Mr Brendon to get his ass over here. The rest, as they say is history. I stayed that day till 2:30 am. From 8 plus am in the morning till 2:30 am the next day. I was so tired, but I still worried. My mum had a headache so I went back for awhile, before taking a short rest and a bath and going down again at 5 plus am after she gave birth at 4:04 am on Hari Raya. Spent the next day with her as she was transfered to another ward. Really want to thank all who came to see and give her support. We really appreciate everything, honestly.
Thanks baby darling for going through so much during childbrith. Your courage and stength is admired by all of us and I'm proud of you. Really looking forward to our new life with the baby :)  I love you, Queeny Koh Xin Wen. Muacks :)

Gu Gu has a crisis!

Happy day today! Although it was raining anf the teacher made me pekchek this morning, I still enjoyed myself in the later part of the day. Afer school, I took the train down to Kallang and changed bus to go City Square, it was raining but I didn't care. My poor laopo had stomachaches and I wasn't going to ley anything keep me from seeing her.
Reach CSM soon enough and went up to see whether she was okay. She was, technically. I was starving, so I decided to go have lunch first. Gu Gu wasn't in the mood for lunch so I went to mac and had a fish burger. After that, I went up and we chatted for awhile before Gu Gu asked me to go buy lunch for her. As usual, I made her eat Mac and she agreed. Bought her fish burger and was about to go up when I got tempted by the evil fries and went back to buy another set lunch, also fish burger. We ate together, Gu Gu was surprisingly fast, even faster than me.
We chatted, play games on her iTouch and soon, it was time for dinner. Went to share a plate of fried rice and for dessert we had fruits. Went back and pei her till she closed shop. Played 2 rounds of Max Tune with some Banglahs...they couldn't drive at all....then we closed shop. As her stomach still hurt and I was worried, I decided to send her back to SengKang before taking the train back again. Felt so close and happy as I hugged her in the tran and rubbed her stomach :)
Baby, wo ai ni! Muacks :)

To someone:  "Thinking..........feeling he is more important to you than me....ever since he appeared, you've changed...you feel distant...more close to him than me....your fb posts about him....is getting more than me....everything now is him....more than me........hais.....ever since he appeared....i can't sleep properly...i keep worrying abt you....thinking abt you..missing you.....i tell you how i feel...but i know is no use......u just wun care...just continue talking....i feel replaced....but no one cares....i asked you tell him ur attached....u dun say....hais....forget it.... "

To jake: "Just feel useless......queeny say gt other guy wan her...plus this guy is love her and she gt feeling for him....just feel so insecure...why? When I join you, you promised I will have power, have fear and respect, why I gt nth? What's the point then? I dun wan ppl come near to my gf...I hate it....first brendon chua...then colin...I got luck. I got rid of both. Nw this guy appears. Wtf? Will it ever fucking end? And will my girl be fucking smart enuf to say she's attached? is nt tht i dun trust her...is i just worry....i dun wan to lose her...i swear..if anyone tries to steal her again...I'll make sure they know I'm nt to be fucked with :@ "

To myself: "Fight till thy end....till Death do us part."

Yang Guo and Gu Gu and 3 cocksters watch " Cats and Dogs "

Just had a super fun day today! After school, I met Gu Gu at her place, not immediatlely of course. The silly girl wanted to sleep abit more and ended up oversleeping. But nevertheless, we met up soon and went down to AMK to buy the tickets for the movie that we were going to watch later in the evening with the three monkeys.
Went down to Dhoby to have lunch at Just Acia, met up for awhile with my Indonesian friend and we chatted for awhile before leaving. Later that night, he would comment on my gf ( wtf )......Anyways, met the 3 cocksters, bought popcorn and drinks and went into the movie. However, the trio were more interested in watching Grown Ups which was being screened in the next theatre. Finally, our movie started and they came back..and two of the cocksters sat at other seats. Boring movie...would have rather watch another round of either grown ups or vampire sucks. Yes, by now you should now that although I like animals, I don't get amused by a talking one.
After the movie, we left the three cocksters and went to Bugis to engage in some activity before we ended the day at 10 and took the train home as we were all tired out by the day's activity. Now waiting for Gu Gu to online and chat with her :)
Thanks laopo for such a wonderful day! I love you so so much ! You are just mine! Muacks :)

Tired but happy Monday :)

Really happy day today, even though I didn't get to spend a long day with Gu Gu. Sent her to work and had a nice, sweet breakfast with her before pei-ing her to open the shop and saty there for awhile. Left shortly after to go to school. Didn't really want to go off, wanted to stay and pei her but she wanted me to go to school so off I went.
After school went went straight home cos I was super tired. Missed Gu Gu so much, but luckily she called me and we had nice long chats. After work, we talked all the way till home ( baby, I'm not paying the phone bill!!! Lalala ). Can't wait for tomorrow to come and we can go out again :) Just really want to treasure every minute spent with her :) Love you so much laopo :) Muacks :)

Today after work went down to Farrer to have lunch with Gu Gu and the three monekys. Had a large KFC lunch and then went to stone......hais...sorry, I just suddenly have no mood at all to post anything now.
Baby, the choice is yours and I hope you will make a wise desicion. Don't rush into things without thinking and stop blaming yourself anymore. I love you always

Yang Guo and Gu Gu watch " Vampire Sucks "

Met Gu Gu at Farrer today after my competition early in the morning. Very gan chiong and competitive...made alot of new friends and rivals...lols. When I saw my friend get eliminated, I thought that was the end for me too. However, luckily, by some miracle I made it to the final round. The first person had votes of 285, followed by the second with votes of 198, then the third with 176 and me with a mere 170. Had a break for an hour, messaged my laopo and went for lunch with my friend and teachers.
Went back to the competition ground at 12 hoping for a miracle to happen, it didn't. I came in first runner up. My tacher said it was a job well done, my uncle said it was fantastic for me to have come so far, and my own parents said I was lousy and I got scolded instd.....wtf :(
Didn't care them. Went for a movie with my darling. Vampire Sucks. Real funny movie but you've got to be a Twilight fan or someone who watched the movie or read the book to truely understand the show, Gu Gu didn't so she thought it was lame. Oh well, I couldn't blame her. As for myself, I had a laughing fit with all the rest of the audience in the cinema.
After that, I sent Gu Gu back to SengKang and pei her awhile. We had a nice long chat and after that, found out that it was close to midnight so I left...wanted to stay longer actually :x Had a nice talk with the taxi uncle, he even gave me a discount at the end and now am online talking to Gu Gu ( and complaining about my parents ).
Thanks baby for such a wonderful day today......haven't had this happy feeling for a long time :) I love you, princess :) Muacks :)

Just confused..........am I losing you? Ever since he appeared, you start talking to him, chatting with him, you just seem to be getting closer to him with each passing day....our distance seems to widen.....dear, why like that? We were once so strong, why can't we keep it that why? I got alot of things to say whenever you mention him, I want to tell you to stop talking to me about him, but I hesitate. Even if I tell you what I feel inside, it won't change anything. You just continue acting single and talk to him every night....hais...nvm..I just want to remind you, I'm your boyfriend. Yes, to you, boyfriend is nothing. Like you say what, haven't marry. Marry also can divorce. Maybe you don't think before you speak, but sometimes, certain words can cause hurt without you knowing. Just that people don't say anything doesn't mean they don't feel hurt. I don't care what you see me as. All I know is, to me, being my gf makes you the top of my list and when people ask, I'm proud to tell them that I have you as my gf, and even show them our photos. Maybe you might not think I'm serious about this r/s, maybe you're not serious , or maybe you don't have faith in this r/s...but whatever the reason, I just still love you with all my heart...
I don't want you to be single......I want you to be mine.

With lots of love,
Your silly piggy laogong

One more day to competition !!!

Nothing much happened today, really. After school, I went down to Gu Gu's place to meet her for lunch...damn hungry cos I had no time to eat in the morning due to my project presentation. Ate a cup of instant noodles, a bar of chocolate and a bottle of milk. Worked on my explanatory speech for tomorrow's competition while waiting for her to get up from her beloved bed. Finally at long last, she came down and we went to eat lunch at Dhoby. After that, she went to work while I went home first to work on finishing and improving my project before it was put on showcase for tomorrow's event. Wanted to change my timeslot to an afternnon timing so that I could bring Gu Gu along but the teacher said it was too late. Furthermore, there was no available timeslot at that time anymore. So too bad...I have to stick with the original morning session and go alone :( Wondering whether I should go or not....dun feel like going :x (  Mr Kelvin, if you see this, please do not kill me! ) hahas.
Gu Gu just got her pay and is sad cos her CPF "ate" her pay again...lol...silly girl, next time old le you become rich no good ma? Lol!!! Haha :)

Boring Thurs

Didn't get to meet my girl today as I had a test today in school. Wanted to meet her afterwards but she didn;t allow me too. Just missed her so much today. Smsed her throughout the entire day and that made things abit better until her stupid Malaysian friend turns up and spoils my fking mood again. Zzzz.
Anyways I can finally meet her tomorrow for lunch!! Just so happy!! Finallt can get to hold her hand and spend time with her and make her feel she's mine! 1 more day to Saturday! Woo hoo :)
Laopo, laogong missing you :( Miss ur hug, ur kiss, ur "I love you"........can't wait to see you tmr :)

Darling, I wanted to pei you so much today. You know how happy I was when I found out there was no school? I could pei you, see you again, really just so happy. But darling, why everytime when we are sweet, sometime must happen to make me or you unhappy. No, I'm not talking about Max Tune. I'm talking about your friend that likes you. You talked so much about him today....even posted thing on your fb about him and say wan buy card to talk to him. You asked me time and time over again, to tell you what I am feeling inside, so that you know. I told you. I hated you talking to other guy. I'll get jealous and worried. Scared they snatch you from me. I'm not saying physically snatch you, cos I will do anything to keep you at my side, I'm just worried your feelings for him start again....hais. But you care ma? You still talk about him, even post thing about him...I just felt not needed in your life anymore...
I love you...just so much...at dinner time, I wanted so much to spend more time with you.....but you went back to work so quickly :( Am I very fan to you, darling?....If so, I'm sorry :( I cried downstair when I reach home....just sat down like a idiot at the bench and think of you...I'm just so useless.....I'm not really feeling well today but I still wanted to see you, cos i missed you and dun wan you bored at work...but why must this happen? Why must everytime when things so sweet....sometime must try to stop us? Why :(
I miss you baby.....you know everytime you make me wait downstairs for you when we go out on your off days? I hated it at first, cos I didn't like waiting for others. But slowly, I grew to love it and accept it as part of my life. I just felt lucky and loved to have someone to wait for. When we slept at the hotel yesterday, I held you so tight to me cos I loved that feeling and I never wanted to let you go...I just miss you so. Why can't we be like this always? Why people always wan try break us up? I hate it....just feeling like killing the next person who tries to break us up...will it never end? First B, then C, and now what? Malaysia? WTF man..seriously...can you just tell him you're attached? Like really. You may be carrying my baby anytime...I just don't want to lose you...I love you darling laopo.... :'( Hugs