Fourth day without my laopo

Fourth day without my laopo. Just missing her so much. 1 more day to seeing her again. Today I got nothing to do plus last night can't sleep cos missing my laopo. So today I drove down to Bugis and went for lunch before going to Popular at Bras Basah Comples to read up some books and pass time. After that went to look around Bugis Junction for some X'mas present ideas. Then meet up with my parent for dinner and go back. Missing my fat piggy. 1 more day...can't wait. Hope she is well and having fun there. I'm waiting for her to come back into my arms. I miss her sweet voice on the line when she talk to me. Baby, I miss you and love you. Wan faster see you. Hao xiang hao xiang ni :) muack muack

Third day without my laopo

Today is the third day without my laopo. Wake up today and went down to FBR as today really have alot of bookings for car polish as X'mas is near. Everything I do is the usual thing. Drive car in. Wash car. Polish car. Drive car out. But without seeing my laopo's sms coming in my phone or calling me just make me feel that everything is not the same. Today just so tired but in my mind only think about my darling. I just hope she is fine and enjoying herself during her holiday. Really missing you alot. When eating I keep thinking what you doing. Whether you outside got eat and takecare of yourself. Whether you tired got rest and whether you having fun or being bored or at there missing me :x Fat piggy laopo, I'm missing you alot. Every single minute of the day hoping you are fine. Is only the third day but feels like a long time since you've gone. I miss you baby. 3 more days to go. I will jiayou and be strong and wait for you to come back :) Wo ai ni laopo...muack muack  muack ♥♥♥

Second day without laopo

Today is the second day without my laopo. Wake up today and went down to FBR as today off from usual work. Everything I do is the usual thing. Drive car in. Wash car. Polish car. Drive car out. But without seeing my laopo's sms coming in my phone or calling me just make me feel that everything is not the same. Everytime my phone vibrated with message, I would think it is laopo and happily look at it, but it isn't. I just hope she is fine and enjoying herself during her holiday. In the afternoon, the workshop call me to let me know my car is ready for collection. I went over to colelct it and drove it back for polish. It's now waiting for you to come back and ride together with me. Really missing you alot. When eating I keep thinking what you doing. Whether you outside got eat and takecare of yourself. Fat piggy laopo, I'm missing you alot. Every single minute of the day hoping you are fine. Is only the second day but feels like a long time since you've gone. I miss you baby. 3 more days to go. I will jiayou and be strong and wait for you to come back :) Wo ai ni laopo...muack muack ♥

First day without laopo

Today is the first day without my laopo. Wake up early as usual then realise dun need to send her to work. Suddenly feel abit sad and emo-ed awhile in bed lol. Went to work and did my usual routine. But without seeing my laopo's sms coming in my phone just make me feel that alot of thing is just different. Everytime my phone vibrated with message, I would think it is laopo and happily look at it, but it isn't. I just hope she is fine. Did a wrap for my phone today at AMK Hub for only $8.00 and it looks nice. After that I went about to see any nice ideas for X'mas presents that I can get for laopo and Ken. There's really alot to buy and I really am lost for choice. Those few hour of present hunting made me happy awhile but after that it's back to reality for me. To let my laopo know, I'm missing you alot. Every min hoping you are fine. Is only the first day but feels like forever. I miss you my love. 4 more days to go. I will jiayou and be strong and wait for you to come back :) Wo ai ni laopo...muack ♥

UPDATE AS PROMISED :)

Good morning Singapore! Wahaha.....so long never post le cos I was busy with trying to kick FBR's lazy buttocks to get up and start work and rise to the tops! Am glad to say everything is falling into place. Anyways, it has been so long since the last post ( oops :x ) so I shall try to recall everything, but do forgive my bad memory if I have left out anything.
Hmmm.......did I mention the chalet? Ok, it was great the first nite.Finally can spend some nice quality family time with her and Ken. Went to Downtown East to eat and buy alot of nonsense. Food sucked. Lol. Went bk to chalet later. Sharry kindly bought for me Mac. Oh ya...I haven't pay her yet! Lols. Must pay bk nxt time. Did I mention I drink 3 cans of coke and did 4 times facial? Wahaha. 2nd day was noisy and the place became a mahjong gambling den. No planning at all. 3rd day I reached there then they all left. And never tell me. Fat piggys.
Next was our 2nd year anniversary. Super happy we made it this far and hope to have many many more happy anniversaries. My laopo very kindly made a nice cake and album although the spelling on it was wrong, but it was a cute mistake. Wahaha. Very happy spending my time with you and although this is my first time having a relationship, I'm quite sure that with my laopo, I will never want to have any others. Let's jiayous for the 3rd year! Muack :)
Errr.....now what else to say eh?? Lol. Wait let me think.
Okayyy.....had a fun Saturday with my laopo ystd. Make her super shy wahaha. The fat piggy. After that we took a bus to Hougang Mall and went there to post mails and eat Pizza Hut. So full! Had to da pao the remaining pizza lol. Ken was cute ystd walking all over the place like a penguin. And now I just remember we never go arcade. Zzz. Faints.
Nvm, Monday go again WAHAHAHA XD

I was supposed to meet laopo today, but last min my parents want me to go with them to lawyer office to get grandmum will. Didn't want to go and quarrel with them. Then walked out of the house. Wanted to meet her but I didn't know what to tell her cos I didn't have the camera with me. Didn't want to disappoint her also. Really don't know what to do. I just went about with nowhere in mind. Ended up outside KK. Sat there for awhile before I went inside to walk. Don't know why I felt sad. Felt the crushing pain as though I had lost someone I loved. And I realised, I actually did. I got out of the place and walked. Ended up at Dhoby. Bought a beer and sat there and drink alone. I looked at the couples walking by. I was once like them. I walked abit more and ended up at bugis. I took a cab back. Tired. Exhausted. my mind no longer controls my hand...today was supposed to be happy but my stupid parents spoiled it...I saw her fb..she changed her status to something else other than married..are we really different? is it really just me left fighting against Fate..if so, than it's no point fighting anymore...I don't know...I'm tired...FBR..I no longer have any interest nor strength to run it...maybe i will close it..it's costing too much money to run..hais...everything in my life never works out well...baby queeny, you were the best thing that happened in my life..just so you know...i nvr blamed you for the baby..because i love you and no matter what you do, you will nvr appear wrong to me..gdnite. I love you wife.

Seeing Forever in your eyes.

Open up your heart to me and say what’s on your mind, I know that we have been through so much pain, but I still need you in my life. No matter what, let's stick together and be strong and there's nothing that can be overcome. I really need you right now. I know deep within my heart that it doesn’t matter if it’s wrong or right, I just really need you beside.
You need me like I need you. Together we can share our dreams coming true. Just let me show you what true love means, because in this Life, I'll be the only one to hold you and make sure that you'll be alright. After all that we've been through, I know we can win this. And I'm never going to lose to emptiness and let you go again. I figured what to say to you, and I know in time that you'll understand.
Cause deep within my heart, it doesn't matter if it's wrong or right. Baby, all I know is that I see Forever in your eyes. <3

A special post to my wifey Queeny Koh

Today, this post is going to be special. I'm not going to post about how we spent time going out, how we enjoyed each other's company or whatever. Today, it's just going to be a nice, long post to my beloved wifey Queeny Koh. Baby, I'm going to hold you tight and no matter what comes our way, I'm never letting you go.

From the start, let's be honest, I never liked you having the baby. I hated whenever you seemed to give him more attention than me. I got jealous, but you can't blame me. I'm selfish by nature. I wanted you for myself, I never liked sharing. Even your blog post that time about choosing him over me made me sad. And yes, I admit my love did start to get lesser because to me, I never really felt happy anymore after that post. I very much loved the old Queeny and wanted her to come back to life but I know this was impossible. I cried. I hated alot of people for taking the girl I loved away from me and putting someone else in her place. I never planned that my first relationship would be so fucked up and make me undergo so much pain and hurt to the extent that death would be a better option.

But still I loved you. Even though after you had the baby, my feelings to you were more of sympathy than empathy. Yes, things went up and down for us. There were good times and bad times. I still perservered because I loved you. But I never could accept the kid. Than the latest quarrel when I was so adamant about you favouring the kid over me that I wanted to break up. I was serious then, and despite still having feelings for you, I never wanted to be second place and forced myself to be cold towards your pleas. The next day I disappeared and went about walking by myself. For no reason, I dropped by my church and went to look for my pastor to chat over a cup of coffee at the cafe of the church. I told him about the incident and he listened without making any comments. After I was done, he looked at me and asked me, 'So Max, do you love her?'
I replied that I did. And he replied with something that somehow enlightened me.
'If you can't accept her kid, you don't really love her at all. For if you love someone, you accept everything about them. Their good and their bad. The nice and the ugly. You must remember that no one was created perfect because God was so great, He made us imperfect that only through Love could we see the perfections in another's imperfections. That is the meaning of true Love."
And I thought it through. On the way home in the cab, his words kept ringing in my head. And finally, I learnt to see through my own selfishness and foolishness and start to really accept you for the person you are, and not the person you were. And I made up my mind to do the right thing. To give you a family filled with love and warmth. And I would make this happen, because I really do love you.

For you I’d just be there. Someone to talk to, share things with, confide in…someone to ask you how your day was and you’d be comfortable enough to share, without fear of ridicule or disinterest. Someone to cuddle with and share intimate moments with, someone you will always feel safe with. We can play together, laugh together, and cry together. Know when you want to be alone and when you want someone to hold you close. Understand your limits and know where to draw the line. Know your friends and accept them all as my friends. I would trust you and be trustworthy enough for you. You will have no fears with me, live dangerously and make everyday an adventure. Live life and love it, have no regrets. Be alone and never be lonely. Passion kindness, honesty, happiness, sincerity and respect will be everyday words. Hatred, sadness, contempt and hypocrisy will never come about. A million people in the world and I only have eyes for you. Wear your emotions on your sleeves and I will care for them as my own. Give me a smile and I will give you my whole. Be there for me and I’ll be there for you a thousand times over.

I love you baby, I really do. Give me this chance to let you feel loved and give you something you always wished for. A complete family. Welcome me with open arms dear, cos your hubby is back. :)

Very Happy SATURDAY :)

Had a very happy Saturday with my laopo. Met her at her house cause no one was home and she had to look after the neighbour's kid. We also did something sweet :) After that, we went to take bus to Woodlands and than to take train to Choa Chu Kang to pass things to her customer before we went off. We also had a hard time deciding bringing Ken to the baby swim at either Vivo or Nex Mall. In the end, we rushed up the train and went to Nex because number 1, we were in a rush, and number two, Nex had a 7 11 where I could buy my coffee milk :) Reached there and had some "Koh" jokes :x and when we reached 7 11, we realised there wasn't any cofee milk! So I went for an alternative instead. Walked around and went to eat at the food court. Realised my laopo recently have a liking for 'xiao long bao' . Silly china woman lol :x After that, I went to toilet and laopo went to feed Ken. I took this opportunity to buy Beard Papa Cream Puffs for her and buy my Tiramisu. Didn't eat yet and we took the train back to Bishan to take the train to Newton and laopo tot we went on the wrong train cos the display was wrong. Reached Newton and waited awhile for her customer to arrive. Played with Ken and he happily dropped my phone on the floor lol. After that we took the train to dhoby and went to CSM to pass things to Shaun and eat our things. Wanted to take Neoprint but machine spoilt. So therefore, laopo decided to lay her ball games while I went to Popular to read Russell Lee's new book. She came out shortly after and we took train back to SK. Happily, I found my coffee milk at the 7 11 there. Walked home with laopo and after that went home to online with her.
Thanks for the happy day baby :) Wo ai ni muackx <3

Sweet Saturday

Had a rather happy day yesterday :) Laopo went to her grandmum house again ( as usual ) and I helped her send things to her customers at CCK. After that, I went out awhile with my police buddy to walk about and makan at Hougang Point. After that laopo msg me so I took 159 over and met her and passed her the dvd that she left behind in the bag for the customer. After that we took 74 and change 88 to go to her house. Then we did something sweet and nice :x After that her customer came so we had to stop. Than we went Compass for dinner and made a cake for my dad :) After taht we walked home and sang song together :) So sweet :) Haha. Love spending nice and sweet time with my laopo. Muacks :) Wo ai ni

Sweet night with my laopo :)

Met with my baby at about 7 at Bishan interchange. Supposed to be earlier but my clever piggy say mrt interchange and resulted in abit of a misunderstanding which also resulted in a major miscommunication which ended up in a gigantic miuse of time. LOL. Took the train to Serangoon then to Farrer Park to go CSM to eat. Don't want to let my piggy walk infront of me so I take her hand and hold tight and walk together with her :)
After that we went to transfer money to some supplier. Laopo not enough ( as usual ) so used mine to transfer. After that we went to Swensens to eat and had a very nice dinner and after that go TX to top up card and play. Had alot of fun taking Neoprint with piggy laopo. After we were done, we go buy bread than also bought a bread that my laopo like to eat. Last one left to eat le! Haha. Then we take train back to SK ( dun knw why all of a sudden in the train my laopo become horny :x)  and I walk laopo back after we reach SK. So long we both nvr walk back le. So happy. Love the night :)
Thanks laopo :) Muack wo ai ni <3

Happy surprise saturday :)

Had a super fun Saturday with my baby :) Went around to collect and deliever things with her as usual. Then when we were going to Woodlands to pass some thing to the buyer, my silly baby suddenly surprise me by saying she had booked 2 tickets to watch X Men with me later. So happy haha :) After everything, we took a train back down to Bishan to catch the movie...it was super cool and after that went to take cab ( very sweet with my laopo ) to take Ken's food before dropping my baby off at her popo hse before I went for dinner with my police buddy. And then went home to MSN with my baby laopo :) Thanks darling for such a great day! I love you :) Muack <3

Happy 19th :)

Happy day today with baby and Ken! Received my belated birthday present from baby and it was a nice little puzzle in a frame :) Went around with baby to collect and post thing as usual. Went to Hougang to collect things and went to Hougang Mall to post stuff at the post office. After that took a cab to Stadium to pass the things to some customer before we took the train to Dhoby Ghaut to pass the things again to another customer before feeding Ken and going for lunch at Just Acia. Had a great lunch before finding out Ken made a mess out of his pants after he poo poo in it and we went through a disgusting job of cleaning him up. After that we took a train to Yishun to pass the things to another customer before going back to Yio Chu Kang and taking a cab to collect certain items before going to baby's grandmum's house. After that we took 165 to Hougang Mall where baby went to meet her parents for dinner and I went shopping haha. Bought a jacket for $70 and going down to AMK tmr after work to buy that pair of shoes that I had always wanted. Thanks laopo for the presents. I love you :) Muack <3

Fast and Furious 5. Finally.

Finally. Today I'm going to watch Fast and Furious 5. Stay tuned for more updates ppl.

Baby loses wallet...careless piggy

Didn't get to update this blog for Saturday because was occupied with alot of other things. Anyways, we didn't manage to catch the movie we planned to watch not because we were too busy but because i decided not to as it was too rush for time and went for our Pizza Hut meal instead. Very funny series of events that happened in the day though. Baby lost her wallet when we were on the cab to Woodlands and we quickly called Hougang Mall to see if any one had found it and luckily, some kind hearted soul picked it up and returned it to the service counter ( although I suspect the reason was that there was only $20 inside so no point taking and being so 'gian peng' lol ). The Pizza Hut meal was nt up to expectations and I wished I had stayed with my normal choice of pepperoni pizza instead ofbeing adventurous and trying the new flavour. Walked around after that, bought a watch for my sis and we then took 74 to send baby to her popo house and I went back and that was all for the day.

12 & 17...oh!!! It's different!

Met laopo at 12 plus today at Compasspoint to meet up and go to watch Fast and Furious 5. My phone cocked up in the morning so there was abit of miscommunication. I was at AMK waiting and wanted to go buy the tickets first for the movie but somehow I didn't ( which proved to be a BIG MISTAKE). She wanted to post things at the Post Office but it was closed so we decided to go next week instead. After awhile, my laopo came with her younger sis and they went to make cake for their mom to celebrate mother's day and I decided to walk around eating things. Bought Bak Kwa and shared with laopo and after 10 years, they finally finished with their cake and we went down to Dhoby to watch our movie after buying coffee at Starbucks.
Went to get tickets but all almost sold out by that time, so we went to bring Ken to swim instead. He cried for half the session so the girl kindly asked us to pay only half price. After that went to buy socks for Ken and went to feed him again and do something close with laopo. After that we went back to SK, where my laopo wanted to go collect the tattoos. The person was not home yet by the time we reached so we sat and waited, at the 12TH floor. About half an hour went by, and still no sign of the person. I was getting pissed and all of a sudden, the person called and asked where were we cos she was already home. Strange, we didn't see her come back. But we understood why later, because she stayed on the 17TH floor!!!! My darling laopo apparently didn't know the difference between 12 and 17, so we got the mix up and the massive amt of time wasted. Had a great laugh about it and after that, we went to RP where my laopo transfered the money to some seller and she went home and I went to my mum's bdae and mother's day party, turning up a little late :x
Thanks laopo for today, I had fun and looking forward to the next outing. I'm missing you already. Wo ai ni :) Muacks <3

Happy day at ECP!!!

Happy day with laopo :) Met her at her place and we took a bus to Woodlands to collect something. Ate Mac before taking 966 to Marine Parade. Went to OCBC to check account before going to 7 11 to buy drink and go to Parkway to feed Ken. But hed un wan to drink, so we went to ECP. Rented 2 bikes because no more 2 seaters and we went off. There was something wrong with laopo's bike at first but after fixing it, it became abit better. Went about and sat down at the pier and drink water and laopo decided to feed Ken before cycling back to return the bikes 50 mins early. Went back over to Parkway and took the bus to laopo's aunt's place. She gave me a shirt she bought for me and it was nice :) Thanks laopo for the shirt. I like it. Hope you had fun today! I love you :) Muacks <3

Happy Good Friday holiday!!!

Out of camp!!!! Yay!!! Finally!!! Home sweet home!!! Miss everyone and everything so much!!! Lalalalalala...freaking happy XD Can't wait to enjoy these coming long weekend with family and laopo!!! Thinking of it, 3 days isn't really that long a weekend, but who cares anyways, as long as there's a holiday, I'm HAPPY!!!! Wahahahaha. Gonna enjoy!!!! Going to Orchard later with parents for dinner and abit of shopping!!! Waahahaha....Friday is family day and Saturday is dating day with laopo!!! Muacks!! Happy Holidays!!! MIssing my laopo so much....past few days phone no batt so couldn't get to contact much with her...sad sad, but nvm, I will enjoy alot these few days!!!! Muack muack laopo :) XOXOXOXO

Happy Sat with laopo and Ken

Had a happy day with my laopo and Ken today. Met up at Vivo and went to Toys R Us to see the baby walker cos my laopo wanted to buy and rent out to people. The display set didn't have the batteries so we took the train to Serangoon Nex Mall and went to Kiddy Palace to have a look. Ken had alot of fun. After that went to Isetan to feed Ken and went to 7 11 to buy Kotex because NTUC queue was too long. Went to Wendy's to eat. The food not very nice and we regretted going there at once. Met Clement to return him his headphone before we went to CSM to go Timezone to take photo. Saw Nick and Wei Qi. Went to play some games and after that took a taxi to send my laopo to her grandmum house again.
Really had such a happy day today. Looking forward to the next outing next Friday. Haha. Thank laopo for today. I love you. Muacks :)

An update for Gu Gu

Baby, really so happy spending yesterday with you going everywhere with Ken. Even though we had to do alot of walking to find the places, I really enjoyed every bit of it even though I was complaining that you were complaining about me complaining about you. Haha. Really love spending such happy times with you and Ken. We really look more and more like a family and I'm glad everything turns out well.
When I inside camp you must learn to takecare of yourself and eat your lunch everyday. Must guai guai wait for me come out and miss me alot k. I will call you every night to tell you how much I miss you and love you. Will be looking forward to seeing you again and hugging you tight tight to me. Love it :)
But of course, I love you the most and am counting down to our next outing and the day I can make you my wifey :x Haha. I love you laopo :) Muacks <3

Brief update on my NUH stay

Started my NS on 14th March, and sadly my gf couldn't be there to be with me. Started missing her so badly and all I could think of was her. First and second day got homesick and missed everyone so much, esp my parents and laopo. Didn't manage to sleep properly and resulted in me blacking out during exercise. Was immediately sent to NUH Hospital for hospitalisation. Later I was transferred out of A&E and went to a temporary ward as all the other places were full. My parents took leave and spent the entire 2 days there with me and my laopo came after work and on the second day, with friends. I got transferred to Ward C on the 2nd night and got discharged the next day. Dad came to fetch me from hospital and after that went out with my wifey. Will get more in depth detail next time. Rushing to talk to laopo on MSN. Thanks all NUH staff for your care, my parents, wifey and friends that came down or msg me. Love you all!!! Muacks :)

I love you laopo...really love you so much.

I just love you so much darling. Really meant it when I said I love you and want you to be my wife. Trust me k. I won't let you down. After NS, I will marry you. Make us have a complete family. Give you a proper title. Give Ken a proper home. Make us inseperable forever. You won't get hurt by anyone. Won't have to live your life by seeing other people attitude. Let Kenneth have a happy family and proper education. I mean it darling. Wait for me k. I love you. Muack

Fun Family Outing day :)

Went to work early this morning to help out my dad as well as perfect my polishing skills. Did about 15 cars before my silly piggy finally wake up from her sleep. Met up with bro Zhong Han at Hub to collect my payout dividends before going to Coffee Bean with him to enjoy a chat over a cup of coffee while waiting for my laopo to turn up.
Finally she came with Kenneth and we went to take the train to Bishan to change at Serangoon before going to Farrer Park to visit Auntie Aiwah. Comically, as my laopo was carrying Kenneth, everyone immediately gave up their seats when she stepped into the train and I even joked that if I betted $50 for every time someone would get up to offer her a seat, I would be rich. We reached CSM with no intention of eating and so went to TZ to find Sathya and had a small chat and let him see Kenneth. While my laopo and Sathya were chatting, I went out to buy my Tako Balls and had a great time enjoying the taste. After that, we went up to Level 4 to find Auntie Aiwah and as usual, the women had a super long chat and clever auntie aiwah actually managed to cheat my laopo into playing a game that was super expensive and which she didn't know how to play. My laopo later went to feed Kenneth and we had dessert after that.
After that, Nicholas and Sathya came up and we all chatted abit more, danced the kiddy version of DDR before going back to SK to buy things for my laopo. Went to eat KFC and walked home with my laopo and Ken. Loved this outing and would like to thank my laopo for making today so enjoyable and memorable.
I love you laopo :) Muacks <3

Fun day with laopo and Ken

Happy New Year to all!!! Really had a great day today with my laopo at CSM. Went there to have claypot lunch at Uncle Sam's before we went to Tom and Stephanie to buy things for Kenneth. Had a great time shopping for stuff and it really made us feel like a young family. After that, we went to Timezone to take NeoPrint with Kenneth for the first time and it was all very nice and cute. Kenneth looked super cute in the photos as he had just woken up and had the blur blur look :) After we were done we took a cab to my dad's workplace at Bishan and Kenneth got a Ang Pow from one of the customers there. Fetched my laopo and Kenneth to her grandmum's place after work as it was raining heavily. Thanks laopo for such a great day today :) Really love it so much. Muack muack <3

Quarrel with laopo again...feeling so bad :( Dun mean to make her more stress and make her so fan nao....hais....hope laopo will forgive me. Really enjoy fixing your sofa with you today..feel so sweet and happy to be able to do things with you....imagining next time after we marry we fix the things in our house..sorry to always have so high expectations in you darling....I will stop stressing you de and be more understanding....I love you darling....nites...sweetdreams...muack

HAPPY 15 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY TO ME AND LAOPO!!

Haha :) Today marks the 15th month anniversary of me and my darling :) Time really passes by us so quickly that we don't even notice at all. All the things we've been through, be it happy or sad, joyful or hurtful, has made us stronger in both relationship and thinking. Looking forward to tomorrow's outing with my darling. I'm sure we will have a fun day together :) Stay tuned for more updates tomorrow! Haha. Wo ai ni laopo :) Muack muack <3

I love my laopo. No matter what she did in the past, no matter what she'll do to me in the future, I can forgive. Nothing will change my love for her. Loving a person means accepting everything about them. The good, the bad, the ugly. No one is born perfect. We all have our short-comings. Our imperfections. Only God is perfect. So I have learnt to forgive. And learnt to accept Kenneth into the world of me and Queeny. And make Kenneth become the next me.

The end of 2010 and the start of 2011. The birth of FBR

Alas, so fast  and we have come to the end of 2010, and before we know it, a New Year will begin. Looking back at all the events that we've been through, I realise that God really works in many unexplainable ways. Take my r/s for example, I think it's really a miracle that I managed to come this far. Never did I imagine that my first r/s would generate so much, and make it so eventful for me. Still then, Life does not let one achieve success without going through the inevitable hardships.
Business wasn't going smoothly at my dad's place, together with half of my brothers, we waited outside a hotel for two hours to see my gf come out with another guy, got into fights and quarrels with my "kor" over that incident when he asked me to leave my gf, and the worst was sending my gf to hospital when she became pregnant with that guy's kid. Obviously he didn't dare to come and try to take her back because I was there. Seriously, at this point of time you might think that my Life is completely fucked up. I thought so too. But I'm a fighter. I never quit. I never give up. Even if all the odds are against me. Even if the Heavens oppose me. I never stop trying. The more you try to push me down, the more I will get up and fight back with even greater strength.
The hardest part that almost broke me was the time after my gf gave birth. Everything changed. The girl I once knew and loved was no more. In her place was someone who felt so unfamiliar, so foreign. I can even say I still took the current gf as the girl I used to go out with. The girl I knew in the past. The memory stayed so long, so hard. The places we been to. The food we ate. The songs we sang. The things we did. All unforgettable. Than I told myself. The only way to let go was to tel myself she was dead. But it was still her. In the start, there was honestly more sympathy than love. For no man could ever accept a girl who could do so much of this to him. But everytime I remembered all the tubes poked into her, how she would grab my hand so hard when in pain, I just felt myself wanting to be by her side even more and give her more love.
It was hard, and painful, and I almost gave up at one point of time. I'd rather keep hold of the girl I used to know and forever lock myself up in the past. I wanted to hide from reality. Run away from it. I wanted to give up on everything and everyone. I wanted to call it quits. I wanted to die. But I couldn't leave her all alone.
By some miracle, I found the strength to live on. I had to find a way to overcome this emotional me. I had to be strong. Emotionless. Cold. Happily, 3 months after this entire event that killed my old gf, I brought her spirit back to Life. I breathed Life into a company. One that would get me back everything that I've lost. Make my family whole again. Make me vent my anger and resentment against all who turned against me. I birthed FBR. Many have asked me what the three letters stood for. But I never replied. But today, the start of 2011, where all things start anew, the name shall be revealed. But before that, let me take tis golden opportunity to wish everyone a very Happy New Year and may all your wishes come true, and to my dearest gf that I have never stopped loving even though you put me through Hell, I love you. Counting down the days to four years later :)
And of course, after being through so much nonsense, it is only rightful that I get my revenge against people who destoyed my Life, and my loved ones'. I am a man fuelled by revenge, and so it should be only fitting that my company's name would be the same as it's purpose built for by the founder. And so you have it. FBR. Fuelled By Revenge.