Happy posting :)

Gu Gu said this to me and made me super happy today: "Laogong .. I really had a great day yesterday wit u the day that I'm waiting for everyday .. I know .. I been quarreling wit u this few days cause of something small .. I'm sorry .. I will control that feeling hope u will give mi some time .. I hate it when we quarrel .. Love when we are sweet and understand each other .. Just hoping u are mine only .. Dun wan any other girls to steal u from mi .. U are just so important in my life .. Without u I'm nth .. I need u so much.. Just wanted to hold u tight .. Treasure u .. Make u feel loved .. Care for u .. Be the one that always be there when u need someone .. Even though u are nt my first guy but I wan make u my last guy .. My love to u is just getting more and more .. And everyday I just scare I will lose u .. U are the first guy that done so much things for mi .. First guy make mi feel loved .. First guy that protects mi and treasure mi .. First guy tht cook for mi .. Wait for mi for hours .. Know where to find mi when we quarrel .. Those are things that I done for my ex and no one do it for mi .. But the day u appear in my life .. Everything changes .. I become a princess of yours .. Let u love .. Dote .. Care .. Protect .. U just mean so much to mi .. U are the first guy that make mi feel I'm really so important to u . U hold mi tight no matter wht .. Give in to mi when we quarrel .. Love mi still when I did something so wrong .. Forgive mi no matter wht .. I really really wants. To treasure u .. Will u give mi this chance .. I have no confident we will last .. But I only wan love u in this life . No one else .. Our four years plan .. I counting down every single day .. Till the day u willing to wear the ring on my hand .. Asking mi to be yr wife .. I'm just waiting for that day .. Remember this .. No one can ever replace u in my heart .. No one is important than u .. U are always the first .. Understand .. I'm sorry that I always quarrel wit u .. Give mi some time and I wil change .. I promise .. Laogong .. Wo ai ni .. 141009 the date that our love begin hope our love will be strong and sweet always .. Max loo is mine .. "

So later at night, she asked me why I loved her, and I replied this to her; " just so u know


i dun love u becos ur friendly and cheerful and kind cos I'm the exact opposite so I can't love you cos of tht;

neither do i love you becos u claim to have a lot of "sexperience" , I'd rather get an escort to do that :x

and neither do i love you cos u put ppl before u, cos to me that's just plain stupid!!!

I love nothing about you, yet I love everything about you :)
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I speak in simple english.......

I love you, because I feel loved when with you, and the want to protect and love you and make u mine in this life. Wo ai ni laopo :) Muacks :)

Yang Guo and Gu Gu relive the past again :)

Just had a super great day with my laopo today!!!! Met her up at 1 plus at her po po's hse and we took bus 55 to Bishan Junction 8. It was pouring heavily but that did not dampen our spirits :) Bought our tickets for the movie "Reign of Assasins" ( gu gu thought it was about the Korean dancer, Rain..rofl). Had an exceptionally large lunch at KFC before we went over to my dad's place to drop off the extra food and heading back to Junction 8 to walk about. Saw alot of stuff and pregnant women before we finally went in for the movie. Fairly nice show with a good cast. Predictable movie plot and ending. After that, we toolk the bus back to her po po's hse and I stayed there awhile until it was time to leave and I went off to AMK Hub to meet my parents and aunt for dinner and now am home chatting with Gu Gu on MSN. Darling, just thank you so much for today. Really so so very happy :D I love you baby laopo :) Muacks!!!

Shop till drop!

Spent the entire of today at Orchard shopping with my parents and aunt. Couldn't go to pei my laopo cos she was busy going all over singapore, in fact, so busy that we didn't even have time to sms each other. But o matter, after feeling superbly bored, I went around to walk and see what I could buy for this Saturday's date with her. Picked up a normal plain tee from a Giordano. That was $19. After that, decided to be abit madder and got myself a PVC jacket from Agnes.b. That was $115. Went on to get myself a new pair of shoes, a clean cut white pair of Nike Air ( $129 ) and lastly went to shop for jeans at Armani. That was costly. $399. I had spent $662 within a day. FAINTS.  Tired le...missing laopo. Can't wait for Sat to come. Hahas. Going to bed le...shopped till drop man..haha. Nites. Sweetdreams. Love u laopo :) Muacks <3

Just want to say I'm missing you so much and I love you no matter what. Darling, maybe got alot of things I want to say but just don't know how to say. For example. technically, bringing the baby out and showing everyone else that is NOT part of your family is a superbly embarrassing thing to do. I don't know about you, but for me, it's like you're telling everyone you sleep with another guy and have his baby. You show people ur baby and they smile and say he's cute. But behind your back, when you leave, do you even know what they say? That time I went down CSM again, aiwah ask me why u like that so stupid. Alot of thing ppl thinking can't say and out of politeness, won't say. But forget it, I also won't bother what others say. And to be honest, you aren't really a good mum. No offense k. Technically, you're not really smart and also don't know how to bring up a kid properly. Let me help you alright? If he grows up under your teaching, he just won't really be much in life. Seriously.
 Really, after all these, I'd really never expected that we'll be still here, that we'll overcome everything together. Everytime, I would live only in hopes of dreaming that everything would be like it was before, but I know that no matter how much I try, it'll be impossible. I have to accept it. A part of me died when I forced myself to push the past out from my mind and let everything go. So I started the nest day new. A new me. A new you. A new life for us. I'm still adapting to the changes. I have one year to do it. Trust me. I will. And for everything else. I'll build up everything. Plan the way for Kenneth. And when the time is right, let him take over. Pray for me that I'll be able to do it. And pray that we'll always be this strong. I love you baby. Muacks.

Happy Hazey Thursday :)

Had a nice time at laopo's place. Watched tv and spent more time with the baby :) And talked alot of things to laopo. Left school early cos I miss laopo and worry about her cos she was P.N. Bluing again but then again, our love overcome everything and we're back to being the normally sweet and loving couple. Hahas :) Love love laopo. Darling, haze getting very bad, dun anyhow go out and take care of your health and ur baby k. I can't wait to see u tmr. Love you so much :) Muacks <3

MIssing my darling laopo so much :)

Haha...having so much fun doing up my son's Facebook profile and missing my darling laopo :) Can't wait for Wednesday to come so I can get to see my laopo again and spend more time with her :) Missing you so much darling laopo...just got so much to say to you :) Muack muack. I love you baby :)

Missing my laopo

Missing you so much darling. One day never see you like wan die le. Just finding it so hard to live without you. After everything that we've been through, I just feel that we just really are a part of each other's lives and that you're just a part of me I can't let go no matter what. I just can't wait for the next time we go out and have fun again like that day :) Love you so much darling. Muacks <3

Happy One Year Anniversary day with laopo :)

Just had a great day with my laopo celebrating our 1st year anniversary. This being my first r/s and the first time I ever stead with a girl for so long, was super important to me and happily, my darling did her best to go out with me, even though it was just for a short while at CompassPoint. Went to print the photos, drank ince lemon tea and went for lunch together. Just had so much fun, and the feeling came back to me, a feeling that I didn't experience for a very long time. After that we went to her house and we spent a very valuable time there talking and I stayed till 9 plus before leaving after my clumsy sotong darling broke a cup and spilled the chicken essence all over the floor and on my jeans and socks. I left shortly after cos I was afraid it would stain plus future mum in law didn't look too happy and assurred my laopo it had nothing to do with her. Now at home waiting for my darling to online. Just had such a great day today and feel that this anniversary is really well spent. Sometimes, you don't have to be rich to be happy. For everything else, there's the love between me and my darling :) Thanks laopo for today! Love love you :) Muacks <3

Dedicated to my darling laopo : HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY !!! :D

So fast we're one year together in a relaitonship le darling :) Time just pass so fast. True, so many things have happened, some which either or neither of us like but have to accept it ( you know what I'm talking about ). Looking back, I'm really surprised that we've managed to come so far. The love and togetherness we have is just simply amazing. Perhaps, we're just fated to be together. Like what I always tell you, I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you. I love you not only for what you have made of yourself, but for what you are making of me. I love you for the part of me that you bring out.
It's just true. After knowing you, I just feel totally different. I learnt how to love and care for a person, and that besides money, there's also some things that are of equal value or if not, more important. You are just so important to me now. Darling, you're not just any normal girl. Yes, to the world you may be just one person, but to me you are the world. You ask me why I love you, but I just feel that love has no explantions nor reasons. It's the attraction and mystical bond between two people of the opposite sex that bind them so tightly together, making them inseperable no matter what may come. I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride. I love you because I know no other way. Really thanks so much for all that you've done for this relationship. I'll say it again, as I've always said, no matter how angry or hurt you may have made me in the past, I have never ever regretted being with you and taking you as my gf. Even if the whole world turns it's back on what I do, I'll still not hesitate to take your hand firmly and walk till the end of life with you. Thanks for this one eventful year and hope that we have many anniversaries to come :)
I love you darling. Muacks :)

We promised not to quarrel...and we quarrelled again...hais... 2 more days to our anniversary.....my first one year anniversary with a girl who's my first girlfriend in my first fucking relationship and I don't get to celebrate with you cos some fucker gave u a stupid baby and you have to take care of him and ruin our beautiful day. Yes, I'm pissed. Just fucking pissed. I mean, who wouldn't. However disappointed and hurt I am, I still take the effort to try to be happy and make u feel better but it's just not working. You're still so stubborn and just hard headed that I just give up explaining. I'm tired of crying, tired of bashing the walls, of feeling my heart get torn to pieces over again and old scars reopening. Tired of listening to promises that never get kept. You want to continue being emo and stupid, than go ahead. Go make ur own damn life miserable. Don't bother me. I've enough already. Any more and I'll go mad. I really will.

Fun Monday after Gu Gu pees in her pants

Nothing much happened today. Had a great day at laopo's house today despite Gu Gu trying to get emo with me in the morning....talked and joked abt her hard head and abt her peeing in her pants :x After that had a chat with her mum as Gu Gu was breastfeeding the kid and we talked abt Hong Kong. After that, I had lunch consisting of filet burget from Mac before I left to meet up with my dad at Bishan. Love spending times with you, darling laopo. Can't wait to see you again tomorrow. 3 more days to our 1 year :) Haha. Muacks :)

Baby's one month party :)

Had such a great day today at my darling's place. Went with my dad and we brought a present for the kid. Wanted to talk to Gu Gu but she was too busy entertaining the relatives and looking after the kid, so I went outside with Clement and Xiang Long and chatted and ate and drank. Had alot of fun and joked abt Clement as we watched him show us his friends on FB. After that they left and I waited for Chin Ho to arrive. Sat and talked with him and awhile later we left together as we were all tired. Just would like to say a big thank you to my laopo and her mum and the wonderful aunts for inviting us over to their party. Love you laopo :) Muacks

Happy Saturday without work

Had a really happy day today at laopo's house even though it was probably the shortest time I've spent there. Didn't go to work as planned but luckily my customer was kind enough not to mind about the last min notice about the change. Went to Gu Gu's house and talked with her. Darling, remember no matter what, you are not nth to me. You are laogong everything and laogong just wan to love you, care for you and hold your hand tight as we walk this journey of Life together :) Just really love you so much, silly piggy :) Can't wait for tomorrow to come :) Muacks :)

Haha :) Happy me...counting down :)

Just had so much fun these few days at Gu Gu's house. As this is the last week before recovery, it's also torture week for Gu Gu. Wahahahaha :) No no, I'm not going to tie her up and whip her....lol. It's just temptation time! Wahaha.....tempting her with all the delicious food and drinks that she can only see, smell but not taste it :) Haha....went to her house with bottles of cold ice lemon tea, and the bottle just gets bigger and more with each passing day! Haha.
Anyways, it's a couple more days to the important days in life! 3 more days to Gu Gu's birthday, and 9 more days to our 1 year :) Hahaha :) Just can't wait to give laopo her presents and surprises :) I shall not say too much on this post to keep Gu Gu in suspense :) Just really joping my darling will love it :)
Haha. Darling, finding you and being able to be with you no matter what is just God's greatest gift to me in this Life :) I love you darling, I really do. Muacks :)

Laopo, I love you

After sometime, I finally made up my mind. She is the girl, and no matter what she's always mine. I would try anything to make her feel loved and feel like a princess.
So darling, laogong promise, he will never make you cry or feel hurt ever again and just love you and be sweet with you. Although you always say you never really do thing for me or even worthy to be my girl, but I feel that you are and that by loving me, you have already given me something that I have always longed for. Spritually, whenever I am down, you encourage me by saying nice things in my ear or just cheer me up simply with a hug or kiss. Financially, whenever I need help, you are always there for me, and never chase me to return you. I will of course, when I have the money. Morally, whenever I get into arguments or fights with friends, you will always be the first one there to talk to me and listen to my problems and relieve me of all worries and stress. Of course, there may be times when we really get into arguments and quarrels, but the best thing about us is that we can get over it nicely by talking things out and giving in to each other. You say you haven't done anything for me? Then why is it I am able to list out these points?
I honestly don't mind the baby. Yes, I admit I wasn't too happy at first but seeing how you are getting on in Life with him, I have also started to take a liking to him and I do believe that I will soon be able to take him as my own. But no matter what, still your place in my heart is irreplaceable. And darling, no matter what, don't ask me to go. I don't like it. I just want to be with you in this Life. Hand in hand as we walk through this journey called Life. Alot of things await us. Our engagement. Our wedding. Our new house. Our kids. our Life together. So trust me ok, I'm just a silly guy who really wants to spend his life with you and with our kids no matter what. So I hope that you too will be strong and be like me, having alot of trust and faith in our r/s.
Just really love you so much laopo. You're mine. Always and forever. Counting down to the important days that are coming up soon! Muacks :)

Here we are..quarrelling again. Hais. Just wanted to best for everyone, but you see things another way...oh well. I don't bother to explain any further. You don't want to care about your kid and always go out with me, fine by me. I'll be the most happiest person. Just don't blame me if you don't interact well with him in the future. But now's not the time to blame who and who. Sometimes, I just think, am I really treating you too good? I don't know. But what I'm doing now is the feeling that I always wanted to give you and feel that you derserve. I just start to feel like smacking you when we quarrel over the smallest, stupidest, most unimportant matters. I'm just sick of quarrelling. Really. Stop it k. I dun wan another quarrel between us. Can't everything just be sweet and nice. Can't we all just agree and listen to each other. Really. It hurts me to quarrel with you. It hurts me when I call u and you sound like you don't give a fuck about me. It hurts when u say u dun wan to talk to me and dun wan care me and I end up smashing the wall with my hands or slamming the keyboard. Can't we ever talk things out nicely? Why does it work only when I'm with you? Hais. i dun knw. All I knw is I really love you and dun wan to quarrel with you. The next time this happens again I just won't reply. I hate quarrelling with you. You're for me to love. Not to make me get mad at you and start saying stupid things to you. ok? And I want you to try to understand my thinking without getting angry. If there's anything u don't like, tell me and we'll talk about it. I want a gf that loves me and understands the way I'm thinking or give me opinion, not someone who will let me touch her all over when i feel like. Yes, I love getting intimate with you but really hope everytime we can be as sweet as that with no more quarrels k?
I love you darling. I really do. Muacks

Why.....again? Promises.......broken again......Heart....bleeding again.....Tears....flowing again........Fist....punching the damn wall again......all because of you......When will you ever grow up?

But no matter what....I still love you darling....goodnites...sweet dreams...I love you. Muacks