Just want to say I'm missing you so much and I love you no matter what. Darling, maybe got alot of things I want to say but just don't know how to say. For example. technically, bringing the baby out and showing everyone else that is NOT part of your family is a superbly embarrassing thing to do. I don't know about you, but for me, it's like you're telling everyone you sleep with another guy and have his baby. You show people ur baby and they smile and say he's cute. But behind your back, when you leave, do you even know what they say? That time I went down CSM again, aiwah ask me why u like that so stupid. Alot of thing ppl thinking can't say and out of politeness, won't say. But forget it, I also won't bother what others say. And to be honest, you aren't really a good mum. No offense k. Technically, you're not really smart and also don't know how to bring up a kid properly. Let me help you alright? If he grows up under your teaching, he just won't really be much in life. Seriously.
 Really, after all these, I'd really never expected that we'll be still here, that we'll overcome everything together. Everytime, I would live only in hopes of dreaming that everything would be like it was before, but I know that no matter how much I try, it'll be impossible. I have to accept it. A part of me died when I forced myself to push the past out from my mind and let everything go. So I started the nest day new. A new me. A new you. A new life for us. I'm still adapting to the changes. I have one year to do it. Trust me. I will. And for everything else. I'll build up everything. Plan the way for Kenneth. And when the time is right, let him take over. Pray for me that I'll be able to do it. And pray that we'll always be this strong. I love you baby. Muacks.