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"Morning baby, I love you. I'm missing you so much. Just can't wait to see you later. Hugs. Muack muack :) "


I missed the times I sent you these SMSes. It was so nice, so sweet, and it made me feel so xin fu. Being with you, it felt like I had everything in the world with me. Nothing else mattered to me. No plans for getting rich, no GTR, no expensive houses, just a plain, simple and sweet world that consisted of you and me. We've known each other for 10 months, stead for 8 months, and through these times faced numerous obstacles I never felt I would overcome. But because of you, I had to be strong. It hurt, it was painful, but I learnt how to deal with such situations, analyse them, then overcome them, and they no longer posed as a problem to me. I didn't need to rely on my brothers, all I needed was myself, and my unwavering trust and love I had for you and I was invincible.
But a few months ago, that trust was crushed. Like totally crushed when I saw something I wasn't supposed to see and didn't believe it would happen. Despite lying to myself countless times, I couldn't help denying the fact that the trust I had in you was destoyed. Single-handedly, you had destroyed the trust I had built up in you over 5 to 6 months with just one wrong move. I didn't care. I was hurt. I felt like shit. I felt like giving you one big slap but I couldn't bear to do it. Despite being betrayed, my heart still loved you, still longed for you, and I still missed you. I gave you another chance, and began to build up my trust all over again from scratch. I thought it would be impossible, but happily, I managed to do it. In fact, I did it in less than a month. I was happy. Everything between us was sweet again, and I was loving you more and more with each passin day.
I decided to take things a step further. I brought you to see my parents, cos I wanted them to know I was serious about you. And I wanted to let you know, I wasn't just playing with your feelings. I wanted you to know, I would be the man in your life. I wanted to be the man in your life. I wanted you to know my love for you wasn't a lie, and that I wasn't going to wake up one day and think that I no longer wanted you and just "get-up-and-go". No. I wanted to tell you I would be here forever by your side. And everything went smoothly. My parents were happy with you. You were happy with my family. I really felt at the top of the world. I still remembered the first time we went for dinner with my parents on my birthday, and you were super shy. Then the first time my parents sent you home, and you felt you didn't belong in my world. Silly fool. So I made sure you felt comfortable with my world. I brought you for dinner more frequently with my family, sent you home more frequently, and eventually, everything improved. And I was so happy. Really.
So baby, don't just "get-up-and-go" on me. Last night, I really missed you so much I started seeing you everywhere. When walking with Ek Fang to your house, I saw a girl across the road that looked like you and I ran across to her, only to be disappointed. Then I mistook another girl at your block for you while we sat there and waited for you to return home. I was so worried about you. It was already late and you weren't home yet. And to make things worse, you weren't feeling well that day. Then I thought I heard your voice, but Ek Fang said it was just my imagination. At that point of time, I cried. I just really missed and worried about you so much. Wanted to hug you so much and never let you go.
Don't go to work today. Just stay home and rest. You're a human, not a machine. And even machines need rest. Please, please, take care of yourself. I'm just so damn fucking worried. And I love you baby. You were always my baby princess. Hugs.