Just want to say I'm missing you so much and I love you no matter what. Darling, maybe got alot of things I want to say but just don't know how to say. For example. technically, bringing the baby out and showing everyone else that is NOT part of your family is a superbly embarrassing thing to do. I don't know about you, but for me, it's like you're telling everyone you sleep with another guy and have his baby. You show people ur baby and they smile and say he's cute. But behind your back, when you leave, do you even know what they say? That time I went down CSM again, aiwah ask me why u like that so stupid. Alot of thing ppl thinking can't say and out of politeness, won't say. But forget it, I also won't bother what others say. And to be honest, you aren't really a good mum. No offense k. Technically, you're not really smart and also don't know how to bring up a kid properly. Let me help you alright? If he grows up under your teaching, he just won't really be much in life. Seriously.
 Really, after all these, I'd really never expected that we'll be still here, that we'll overcome everything together. Everytime, I would live only in hopes of dreaming that everything would be like it was before, but I know that no matter how much I try, it'll be impossible. I have to accept it. A part of me died when I forced myself to push the past out from my mind and let everything go. So I started the nest day new. A new me. A new you. A new life for us. I'm still adapting to the changes. I have one year to do it. Trust me. I will. And for everything else. I'll build up everything. Plan the way for Kenneth. And when the time is right, let him take over. Pray for me that I'll be able to do it. And pray that we'll always be this strong. I love you baby. Muacks.

Happy Hazey Thursday :)

Had a nice time at laopo's place. Watched tv and spent more time with the baby :) And talked alot of things to laopo. Left school early cos I miss laopo and worry about her cos she was P.N. Bluing again but then again, our love overcome everything and we're back to being the normally sweet and loving couple. Hahas :) Love love laopo. Darling, haze getting very bad, dun anyhow go out and take care of your health and ur baby k. I can't wait to see u tmr. Love you so much :) Muacks <3

MIssing my darling laopo so much :)

Haha...having so much fun doing up my son's Facebook profile and missing my darling laopo :) Can't wait for Wednesday to come so I can get to see my laopo again and spend more time with her :) Missing you so much darling laopo...just got so much to say to you :) Muack muack. I love you baby :)

Missing my laopo

Missing you so much darling. One day never see you like wan die le. Just finding it so hard to live without you. After everything that we've been through, I just feel that we just really are a part of each other's lives and that you're just a part of me I can't let go no matter what. I just can't wait for the next time we go out and have fun again like that day :) Love you so much darling. Muacks <3

Happy One Year Anniversary day with laopo :)

Just had a great day with my laopo celebrating our 1st year anniversary. This being my first r/s and the first time I ever stead with a girl for so long, was super important to me and happily, my darling did her best to go out with me, even though it was just for a short while at CompassPoint. Went to print the photos, drank ince lemon tea and went for lunch together. Just had so much fun, and the feeling came back to me, a feeling that I didn't experience for a very long time. After that we went to her house and we spent a very valuable time there talking and I stayed till 9 plus before leaving after my clumsy sotong darling broke a cup and spilled the chicken essence all over the floor and on my jeans and socks. I left shortly after cos I was afraid it would stain plus future mum in law didn't look too happy and assurred my laopo it had nothing to do with her. Now at home waiting for my darling to online. Just had such a great day today and feel that this anniversary is really well spent. Sometimes, you don't have to be rich to be happy. For everything else, there's the love between me and my darling :) Thanks laopo for today! Love love you :) Muacks <3

Dedicated to my darling laopo : HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY !!! :D

So fast we're one year together in a relaitonship le darling :) Time just pass so fast. True, so many things have happened, some which either or neither of us like but have to accept it ( you know what I'm talking about ). Looking back, I'm really surprised that we've managed to come so far. The love and togetherness we have is just simply amazing. Perhaps, we're just fated to be together. Like what I always tell you, I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you. I love you not only for what you have made of yourself, but for what you are making of me. I love you for the part of me that you bring out.
It's just true. After knowing you, I just feel totally different. I learnt how to love and care for a person, and that besides money, there's also some things that are of equal value or if not, more important. You are just so important to me now. Darling, you're not just any normal girl. Yes, to the world you may be just one person, but to me you are the world. You ask me why I love you, but I just feel that love has no explantions nor reasons. It's the attraction and mystical bond between two people of the opposite sex that bind them so tightly together, making them inseperable no matter what may come. I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where. I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride. I love you because I know no other way. Really thanks so much for all that you've done for this relationship. I'll say it again, as I've always said, no matter how angry or hurt you may have made me in the past, I have never ever regretted being with you and taking you as my gf. Even if the whole world turns it's back on what I do, I'll still not hesitate to take your hand firmly and walk till the end of life with you. Thanks for this one eventful year and hope that we have many anniversaries to come :)
I love you darling. Muacks :)

We promised not to quarrel...and we quarrelled again...hais... 2 more days to our anniversary.....my first one year anniversary with a girl who's my first girlfriend in my first fucking relationship and I don't get to celebrate with you cos some fucker gave u a stupid baby and you have to take care of him and ruin our beautiful day. Yes, I'm pissed. Just fucking pissed. I mean, who wouldn't. However disappointed and hurt I am, I still take the effort to try to be happy and make u feel better but it's just not working. You're still so stubborn and just hard headed that I just give up explaining. I'm tired of crying, tired of bashing the walls, of feeling my heart get torn to pieces over again and old scars reopening. Tired of listening to promises that never get kept. You want to continue being emo and stupid, than go ahead. Go make ur own damn life miserable. Don't bother me. I've enough already. Any more and I'll go mad. I really will.