Enough is enough

Hais....how to say this.......I really dun wan you to leave. You leave already, I don't know how I will continue with Life without you. I really miss you and love you so much. But sometimes, I just feel like killing you. You really uh.....drive me crazy over you. Sometimes, I think you're cute and lovable, and sometimes, I feel that you're damn stupid. Hais....how should I put this across to you......ok. Try to learn to be like me. Put yourself FIRST over everyone else. Stop giving in to people ok. Everytime I want to do things with you, you have to tell me to consider your friend's opinion first and ruin my entire plan. Maybe Brendon was right, you place your friend more important then your boyfriend. But it's okay, I can put up with that. The next thing I know, your friend at work betray you and do all the bad things to you behind your back and you still can put up with her and forget about it. Wa lao eh...really ah. I dunno whether to say you very kind or fucking stupid. I think if its for me, I would probably have made sure she disappear from my world entirely. I tell you how many times already. You be too kind to people is no use. People will only take advantage of you. I know it sounds harsh but its the freaking truth. Kind and honest people can't go far in today's society. Can you try to place me or yourself FIRST over everyone else?  Surely you heard of this saying before right? "Ren bu wei ji, tian zhu di mie." (When people do not look out for themselves, Heaven will expel and Earth will destroy them.) I'm not saying that I don't want you to be nice to others, just know the limits and don't let yourself get taken advantage of okay?
Anyways, back to topic, I know I've been saying this for God knows how many times, and yes, its the same thing all over again, but I'll just be brief. I really don't want you to leave. Honestly. I really love you and need you so much in my life. You are my first, and hopefully my last and my only. Once you leave, I think my Life will be ruined le. Hais. You promised to stop quarrelling with me already. Now we still quarrel. Hais. Really wish that we can be back to those times in the past when the world consisted of you and me. You said you would try. So all along, I've been waiting. Waiting to see if you could make this wish possible. But you can't. So now, it's my turn. Enough is enough. Don't blame me if you don't like what's going to happen. I've been kept waiting too long. It's time to play the game my way. And yes, I guarantee you'll find that I'll be able to bring us back to the way that we used to be in the past.
That is, of course, if you can survive the way I do things...