My dear, today marks the hundredth day that we've been together. We're supposed to be happy, enjoying every single moment that we're together, but I don't think that given the current situation and turn of events, anyone is happy.
Hais. What started out as a perfect plan only ends up in ruins now. Why? Was it something I did? Or something you said? Maybe I didn't care enough about you or make you feel loved. Maybe you tired me out with all your "wanting-to let-go" smses. I tell you honestly, when you sent me the first "wanting-to-let-go" sms, part of my heart already died. The next few times you sent, somehow, I started to get this "why-must-you-do-this-to-me-everytime? I'm-tired-of-this-shit" attitude. Yet, I still tried my best to salvage our relationship. I cired, I begged, I pleaded, everything just to save us. I don't want things to end just like that. We're supposed to go on, like forever? Not ending just after 100 days. I want you to be at my side, like for life? The reason why I keep asking you not to work is so that I can spend more time with you. After my 18th birthday, I will get promoted and I really wish you will let me take care of you. And take care of you for Life. I know my job isn't really that clean, but does that really matter? Do you know everytime I see you tired after a long day of work, I feel sorry for you? Look, you work for so long hours but you see the pay you are getting? Is it worth it? Be with me. Be my woman. Let me take care of you. Let me spend more time with you. Enjoy our life together.
I really miss those times we spent together. Before everyone else came into the picture. I wish I can rewind time back to when we just started. When the world consisted of just you and me. Us going to the movies together, us eating ice cream together and getting it all over our mouths and end up kissing each other, me sending you home late at night, us playing games at the arcade, us bowling, us going picnic at Vivocity, there's just too many things we did to be listed down here. Hais. If only I could turn back time. Now at this moment in time, I just want to tell you this. We're supposed to be meant for each other. We're supposed to go on, forever. But if you really are tired (Honestly, I hate to say this) but if you really only suffer when you are with me, then I will let you go. I love you baby. So much. But if being together only makes you suffer, I'd rather you leave me and live your life happily. I'm sorry for loving you. I want to ask you for another chance, but I think I've asked for too many chances already. Whether or not we will have tomorow, the desicion lies with you. Think about it. Sms me when you have done thinking. To be, or not to be? That is the question.
I love you, Queeny Koh Xin Wen. Take care.
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