Third day without my laopo

Today is the third day without my laopo. Wake up today and went down to FBR as today really have alot of bookings for car polish as X'mas is near. Everything I do is the usual thing. Drive car in. Wash car. Polish car. Drive car out. But without seeing my laopo's sms coming in my phone or calling me just make me feel that everything is not the same. Today just so tired but in my mind only think about my darling. I just hope she is fine and enjoying herself during her holiday. Really missing you alot. When eating I keep thinking what you doing. Whether you outside got eat and takecare of yourself. Whether you tired got rest and whether you having fun or being bored or at there missing me :x Fat piggy laopo, I'm missing you alot. Every single minute of the day hoping you are fine. Is only the third day but feels like a long time since you've gone. I miss you baby. 3 more days to go. I will jiayou and be strong and wait for you to come back :) Wo ai ni laopo...muack muack  muack ♥♥♥

Second day without laopo

Today is the second day without my laopo. Wake up today and went down to FBR as today off from usual work. Everything I do is the usual thing. Drive car in. Wash car. Polish car. Drive car out. But without seeing my laopo's sms coming in my phone or calling me just make me feel that everything is not the same. Everytime my phone vibrated with message, I would think it is laopo and happily look at it, but it isn't. I just hope she is fine and enjoying herself during her holiday. In the afternoon, the workshop call me to let me know my car is ready for collection. I went over to colelct it and drove it back for polish. It's now waiting for you to come back and ride together with me. Really missing you alot. When eating I keep thinking what you doing. Whether you outside got eat and takecare of yourself. Fat piggy laopo, I'm missing you alot. Every single minute of the day hoping you are fine. Is only the second day but feels like a long time since you've gone. I miss you baby. 3 more days to go. I will jiayou and be strong and wait for you to come back :) Wo ai ni laopo...muack muack ♥

First day without laopo

Today is the first day without my laopo. Wake up early as usual then realise dun need to send her to work. Suddenly feel abit sad and emo-ed awhile in bed lol. Went to work and did my usual routine. But without seeing my laopo's sms coming in my phone just make me feel that alot of thing is just different. Everytime my phone vibrated with message, I would think it is laopo and happily look at it, but it isn't. I just hope she is fine. Did a wrap for my phone today at AMK Hub for only $8.00 and it looks nice. After that I went about to see any nice ideas for X'mas presents that I can get for laopo and Ken. There's really alot to buy and I really am lost for choice. Those few hour of present hunting made me happy awhile but after that it's back to reality for me. To let my laopo know, I'm missing you alot. Every min hoping you are fine. Is only the first day but feels like forever. I miss you my love. 4 more days to go. I will jiayou and be strong and wait for you to come back :) Wo ai ni laopo...muack ♥

UPDATE AS PROMISED :)

Good morning Singapore! Wahaha.....so long never post le cos I was busy with trying to kick FBR's lazy buttocks to get up and start work and rise to the tops! Am glad to say everything is falling into place. Anyways, it has been so long since the last post ( oops :x ) so I shall try to recall everything, but do forgive my bad memory if I have left out anything.
Hmmm.......did I mention the chalet? Ok, it was great the first nite.Finally can spend some nice quality family time with her and Ken. Went to Downtown East to eat and buy alot of nonsense. Food sucked. Lol. Went bk to chalet later. Sharry kindly bought for me Mac. Oh ya...I haven't pay her yet! Lols. Must pay bk nxt time. Did I mention I drink 3 cans of coke and did 4 times facial? Wahaha. 2nd day was noisy and the place became a mahjong gambling den. No planning at all. 3rd day I reached there then they all left. And never tell me. Fat piggys.
Next was our 2nd year anniversary. Super happy we made it this far and hope to have many many more happy anniversaries. My laopo very kindly made a nice cake and album although the spelling on it was wrong, but it was a cute mistake. Wahaha. Very happy spending my time with you and although this is my first time having a relationship, I'm quite sure that with my laopo, I will never want to have any others. Let's jiayous for the 3rd year! Muack :)
Errr.....now what else to say eh?? Lol. Wait let me think.
Okayyy.....had a fun Saturday with my laopo ystd. Make her super shy wahaha. The fat piggy. After that we took a bus to Hougang Mall and went there to post mails and eat Pizza Hut. So full! Had to da pao the remaining pizza lol. Ken was cute ystd walking all over the place like a penguin. And now I just remember we never go arcade. Zzz. Faints.
Nvm, Monday go again WAHAHAHA XD

I was supposed to meet laopo today, but last min my parents want me to go with them to lawyer office to get grandmum will. Didn't want to go and quarrel with them. Then walked out of the house. Wanted to meet her but I didn't know what to tell her cos I didn't have the camera with me. Didn't want to disappoint her also. Really don't know what to do. I just went about with nowhere in mind. Ended up outside KK. Sat there for awhile before I went inside to walk. Don't know why I felt sad. Felt the crushing pain as though I had lost someone I loved. And I realised, I actually did. I got out of the place and walked. Ended up at Dhoby. Bought a beer and sat there and drink alone. I looked at the couples walking by. I was once like them. I walked abit more and ended up at bugis. I took a cab back. Tired. Exhausted. my mind no longer controls my hand...today was supposed to be happy but my stupid parents spoiled it...I saw her fb..she changed her status to something else other than married..are we really different? is it really just me left fighting against Fate..if so, than it's no point fighting anymore...I don't know...I'm tired...FBR..I no longer have any interest nor strength to run it...maybe i will close it..it's costing too much money to run..hais...everything in my life never works out well...baby queeny, you were the best thing that happened in my life..just so you know...i nvr blamed you for the baby..because i love you and no matter what you do, you will nvr appear wrong to me..gdnite. I love you wife.

Seeing Forever in your eyes.

Open up your heart to me and say what’s on your mind, I know that we have been through so much pain, but I still need you in my life. No matter what, let's stick together and be strong and there's nothing that can be overcome. I really need you right now. I know deep within my heart that it doesn’t matter if it’s wrong or right, I just really need you beside.
You need me like I need you. Together we can share our dreams coming true. Just let me show you what true love means, because in this Life, I'll be the only one to hold you and make sure that you'll be alright. After all that we've been through, I know we can win this. And I'm never going to lose to emptiness and let you go again. I figured what to say to you, and I know in time that you'll understand.
Cause deep within my heart, it doesn't matter if it's wrong or right. Baby, all I know is that I see Forever in your eyes. <3

A special post to my wifey Queeny Koh

Today, this post is going to be special. I'm not going to post about how we spent time going out, how we enjoyed each other's company or whatever. Today, it's just going to be a nice, long post to my beloved wifey Queeny Koh. Baby, I'm going to hold you tight and no matter what comes our way, I'm never letting you go.

From the start, let's be honest, I never liked you having the baby. I hated whenever you seemed to give him more attention than me. I got jealous, but you can't blame me. I'm selfish by nature. I wanted you for myself, I never liked sharing. Even your blog post that time about choosing him over me made me sad. And yes, I admit my love did start to get lesser because to me, I never really felt happy anymore after that post. I very much loved the old Queeny and wanted her to come back to life but I know this was impossible. I cried. I hated alot of people for taking the girl I loved away from me and putting someone else in her place. I never planned that my first relationship would be so fucked up and make me undergo so much pain and hurt to the extent that death would be a better option.

But still I loved you. Even though after you had the baby, my feelings to you were more of sympathy than empathy. Yes, things went up and down for us. There were good times and bad times. I still perservered because I loved you. But I never could accept the kid. Than the latest quarrel when I was so adamant about you favouring the kid over me that I wanted to break up. I was serious then, and despite still having feelings for you, I never wanted to be second place and forced myself to be cold towards your pleas. The next day I disappeared and went about walking by myself. For no reason, I dropped by my church and went to look for my pastor to chat over a cup of coffee at the cafe of the church. I told him about the incident and he listened without making any comments. After I was done, he looked at me and asked me, 'So Max, do you love her?'
I replied that I did. And he replied with something that somehow enlightened me.
'If you can't accept her kid, you don't really love her at all. For if you love someone, you accept everything about them. Their good and their bad. The nice and the ugly. You must remember that no one was created perfect because God was so great, He made us imperfect that only through Love could we see the perfections in another's imperfections. That is the meaning of true Love."
And I thought it through. On the way home in the cab, his words kept ringing in my head. And finally, I learnt to see through my own selfishness and foolishness and start to really accept you for the person you are, and not the person you were. And I made up my mind to do the right thing. To give you a family filled with love and warmth. And I would make this happen, because I really do love you.

For you I’d just be there. Someone to talk to, share things with, confide in…someone to ask you how your day was and you’d be comfortable enough to share, without fear of ridicule or disinterest. Someone to cuddle with and share intimate moments with, someone you will always feel safe with. We can play together, laugh together, and cry together. Know when you want to be alone and when you want someone to hold you close. Understand your limits and know where to draw the line. Know your friends and accept them all as my friends. I would trust you and be trustworthy enough for you. You will have no fears with me, live dangerously and make everyday an adventure. Live life and love it, have no regrets. Be alone and never be lonely. Passion kindness, honesty, happiness, sincerity and respect will be everyday words. Hatred, sadness, contempt and hypocrisy will never come about. A million people in the world and I only have eyes for you. Wear your emotions on your sleeves and I will care for them as my own. Give me a smile and I will give you my whole. Be there for me and I’ll be there for you a thousand times over.

I love you baby, I really do. Give me this chance to let you feel loved and give you something you always wished for. A complete family. Welcome me with open arms dear, cos your hubby is back. :)