I was supposed to meet laopo today, but last min my parents want me to go with them to lawyer office to get grandmum will. Didn't want to go and quarrel with them. Then walked out of the house. Wanted to meet her but I didn't know what to tell her cos I didn't have the camera with me. Didn't want to disappoint her also. Really don't know what to do. I just went about with nowhere in mind. Ended up outside KK. Sat there for awhile before I went inside to walk. Don't know why I felt sad. Felt the crushing pain as though I had lost someone I loved. And I realised, I actually did. I got out of the place and walked. Ended up at Dhoby. Bought a beer and sat there and drink alone. I looked at the couples walking by. I was once like them. I walked abit more and ended up at bugis. I took a cab back. Tired. Exhausted. my mind no longer controls my hand...today was supposed to be happy but my stupid parents spoiled it...I saw her fb..she changed her status to something else other than married..are we really different? is it really just me left fighting against Fate..if so, than it's no point fighting anymore...I don't know...I'm tired...FBR..I no longer have any interest nor strength to run it...maybe i will close it..it's costing too much money to run..hais...everything in my life never works out well...baby queeny, you were the best thing that happened in my life..just so you know...i nvr blamed you for the baby..because i love you and no matter what you do, you will nvr appear wrong to me..gdnite. I love you wife.