Happy Mother's Day to all mums!

Happy Mother's Day to all out there! Thanks for your love and care and guidance to us all these years! Hope you all enjoy this very special day dedicated to you and whatever your family has in store prepared for you! Haha! Anyways, I shall be meeting my baby later and go out..(no, we're not celebrating Mother's Day even though my baby claims she is a mum and has my baby) we're just going out for a simple date, that's all. Missed going out with her as she was tied up at work the last week and me with schoolwork. But happily, today we can meet up and have fun (no..not that kind of fun, people...I know what you're thinking) It's just a date. What can happen? Hahaha. *evil laughs* Anyways, gotta go now. Till next time, folks! And wishing all mums once again a very Happy Mother's Day! God bless!

Alone again...naturally. No wait!! There's WAAAASABEH!!!!

Didn't see my baby for today...started missing her ever since we parted at last night's outing...real fun it was. And I got aimed for NO reason at all. Zzzz!!! Anyways...my baby felt tired today so she wanted to stay at home instead of meeting so I planned to actually spend the day after sch to train my newly accquired pride and joy, a silver Nissan GTR, at City Sq Mall located in Farrer Park. But alas! I forgotten that I had passed the car over to my gf so apparently, I couldn't train it today. So I asked Queeny to help train it for me, as she was rather free during work times. She agreed, with a bit of persuasion, and so I spent yet another day alone again. Sobsob :'( Anyways, didn't do much...amused myself at the hilarious clips of "Annonying Orange" on Youtube (Shit! I'm catching on the Youtube addiction virus from my baby) and spent time laughing at the way Annoying Orange said "Wasabi". In the end, I got so tempted by "Waaaasabeh!!" that I made my parents bring me to eat sushi. Snapped a few shots of the sushi and of course, the " Waaaasabeh!!" Ended up with my stomach filled with sushi, wasabi and coke and here I am, writing this new post as I wait for my baby to finish sorting her photo album and sign in online to msn. Till next time, folks! See ya!

Voices and thoughts in my head

This post isn't about anything on me and Queeny. It's about me. And the day I spent alone. And the thoughts I had. I started off looking forward to today, looking to see Queeny, but she couldn't make it cos she had no money. Anyways, I offered to pay for her but she refused to, so I just let it be. Went to school in the morning, went to have a meeting with my teachers about my progress in school. They were concerned about my productiveness and asked why I seemed to have given up. The fact was, I actually had already given up. Losing interest was just one of the points but I just knew the reason was that I had lost confidence in myself. I no longer had the mindset to focus on my studies. They asked my about the business I started and whether I was in any financial need. I told them I wasn't. I told them that judging by the way things were, I wasn't going to poly and I knew I couldn't make it even if I tried. So my work now was actually for saving up to further pursue my studies in the course of my choice in a private institute of learning. I don't want to keep relying on my parents. I'm not a small kid anymore. For once, I'm going to do what I really want to do. And with my own resources. And speaking of parents, hais. Don't understand them. I don't do anything they nag. Do thing also nag. Hais. I just want to help out, like that also wrong ma? Dad, don't tell me what I can do and what I can't. Don't tell me things about doing business. I can tell you I know more than you. Your business managment style is screwed up. It's not for the market nowadays. Don't tell me I'm too impulsive and hot headed, in the business world, one has got to take calculated risks at times to gain. But I understand your concern, Dad. And I appreciate it. Anyways, I've written a few lines for the people I want to talk to the most below. And everything I said, I mean it.
To my parents : Dad and Mum, I know I've been a pain in the ass and causing you endless trouble, but for once, please trust me and try to understand that what I'm doing is for everyone's good. I just want to help out. I don't want to see us in this state anymore. I'm sick and tired of this shit and I hate to see you argue over financial matters. All I ever wanted is to just give you a better life and I really hope you'll trust me and give me your support. I'm a big boy now, I know what I'm doing. I'm sorry if I'm a bad son and always shout at you and cause havoc in the house, but I really love you so much mom and dad.
To Queeny : Baby, I miss you and I love you so much. Every minute I'm thinking of you, wondering what you're doing, whether you've eaten and whether you're tired at work or bored. You may think you're old enough to care for yourself but the fact of the matter is you're still very innocent at certain things. I'm not saying being nice and simple minded is a bad thing but times have changed. Innocence is almost extinct. People are not so simple nowadays. I'm really scared others will bully you and take advantage of you. You always say 'I'm a gangster and little little bit want call gang come down and fight' but seriously, you've got to start being firm and start learning how to fight for yourself and say 'no.' Don't always give in to people. You'll only make yourself an easy target and people will start to take advantage of you. And it has already been done. You know what I mean. And stop being pessimistic and thinking of things that won't happen. You know how much I just want to smack you on the head whenever you send me emo messages? Why can't you just not care so much and focus more on our relationship and yourself? Why must you always go care about what people say about you? You don't owe them a living so why must you answer to them? Whatever you do, you always think what others will say. Please la, for God's sake, don't give a fuck about them. Just write what you want to write, do what you want to do. Why care so much about others? Why can't you be more like me? Learn to put yourself first over anything or anyone else. It's not called being selfish. It's called being smart. There's really times I really feel like fucking you upside down, and probably this is one of those times, but deep down, no matter what, I still love you so much.
To Brendon : God.....what am I to do with you? Seriously. I probably haven't gotten so mad at a person in my life before and congrats, you're the first. Anyways, I really don't want to care already. I just give up on you. Your matter with Queeny....you know what you did...if really there is, go do something about it. Stop dragging it on. You're only making things miserable for everyone. I seriously feel like personally screwing your sorry ass but then again, I can't be bothered to waste my time anymore. I have better things to do. Your matter with Queeny, pls be a man and go settle everything once and for all. I've enough of this nonsense. And stop trying to stalk my fb la...you can't see it no matter how you try. And sending in spies is useless, I've deleted everyone who is a friend with you off my fb. Just go get a life man. There's so many other girls out there. Stop disturbing mine. I'm already being very tolerant already. So I just nicely ask of you to stop intervening in my life and causing a fucking distress to me. Thank you very much.
To Jake : Thanks bro for all your help and advice. Really appreaciate it. You asked me again last night if I didn't want to join you guys back and I turned you down. I already made up my mind. If you still see me as a bro, we'll just be normal bros, I don't want to have anything to do with the gang anymore. I just hope you understand. There's many other capable guys in the gang besides me, it's just that you haven't realised it. I'm not indispensable. No one is. I just wish you all the best in your life and hope that the next time we meet, we're just like the way we were, just without all the gang stuff.
So that's about it. All my thoughts I had when wandering about aimlessly today. Got a slight headache but after taking medicine and a rest, I feel better now. Maybe I'll just go out for another walk. Today really was thoughtful. It's not always I get to spend time alone but today, today was good. Seriously.

Necklaces, lovebites, business plans and free games

Hmm..sorry peeps for not updating ystd, cos was spending a really great day with Gu Gu. Bought her a custom made necklace with our photo and some words laser engraved onto the surface of the pendant and I'm glad to say Gu Gu loved it. Gave her a major lovebite later at night, which caused much embarrassment to her at work where her supervisor, Siti, was asking about it. But pls, peeps, you should see the one she gave me! Haha. Anyways, went out with my business partner to further plan the blueprint and layout for the flyers and the namecards and where to distribute them. Didn't really do much planning. Spent most of the day today at City Square Mall with Gu Gu and watching her as she worked. Got a couple of games from Gu Gu and for the first time, I played till I got tired of it. Went for the long awaited Mac Lunch before me and my business partner headed off to Bishan to plan on the flyer. Ended up playing pool instead. Dad picked me up and went home to grab a bite before I got an sms from Gu Gu about her irritating friend who would not stop pestering her so I went down again to City Square Mall to accompany her awhile and talk to her. Got a few games from Siti, who was curiously looking at the lovebite on my neck and smiling to herself. Oops :x Went home after that and now waiting for Gu Gu to sign in on MSN. Till next time, folks...yawn. Oops :x

Monday blues? Not so.

Hmm....spent a really cool Monday today...met up with my client to collect money at Hougang at 11 before going off to school. My silly baby was too attached to her baobei bed to meet me for lunch so I had it on my own before proceeding to school. School was rather uneventful...my teacher came back from reservist and my God, he looks super tan now...haha...did chionging on my work before we bullied a indian classmate which resulted in me and HY and a couple of other students going on a major laughing spree. Finished laughing and left with no more mood for studying, we bought coffee and chips and gathered behind with a few other guys to watch the latest season of Incredible Tales, and one of the guys got frightened..No..It's not me. It's Jian Wu. LOL. Ended school at 4:30 but stayed on till 5 to finish watching. Went to AMK Hub to walk before my dad picked me up. Went home to continue with the rest of my work. Missed my baby terribly today. Waiting for her to finish work so I can call her. Baby, I love you. Muacks! :)

All's Well Ends Well

This will be a long post people, so stay tuned. It's dedicated to quite a number of people, so anyways, those that got dedicated in this post, I mean everything I said to you.
To Baby: Honey, I love the feeling of spending my time with you and as I said, I'm never letting you go. People ask me why, ask me what I see in you, what makes me so crazy and give up everything for you, and I tell them that they have to be me in order to understand why. The feeling of being loved and cared for by you, the knowledge of being doted on by you, is a feeling and joy that plain words alone cannot express. And that is why, no matter what may come, I'm never giving you up, wife.
To Brendon: Bro, I KNOW you're always reading my blog. Haha. Chillax. I've never blamed you entirely for everything that has happened, honestly, cos you weren't entirely at fault. Just wanna say thanks for your loyal fellowship of this blog and me and Queeny's love life, heh heh. Do hook me up for a drink or a game of pool when you're free and we'll let bygones be bygones and become friends again.
To Jake: Kor, maybe you won't understand me, and maybe you'll still have a tainted image of Queeny, but she's my stead and I love her and I honestly don't really give a fuck what you think about her. I really hope you'll give us your blessings and I just wanna say, I'm sorry for hitting you. I didn't mean to. Hope you understand.
To Sam: GirlPower, YES, I KNOW you're her. You dun gei gei. Relax ok. Your apology has been accepted. I know you meant goodwill but just did it in the wrong way. I'm a big boy now, I know how to take care of my own matters le, Jie. Dun worry ok, go spend more time focusing on your own relationship with your laogong and I really wish you two the best in Life.
To HY: Thx bro for the emotional support through the times when I needed someone to talk to me the most. I owe you one bro. Thanks alot. Seriously.
And that's all, people. Till next time! See ya! :D

Just an update after so long

It's really been a long time since the last post update on this blog and my god, time really flies. So much has happened by the time this post is up and I am probably loitering about on the streets alone now. Don't ask me why, I won't say. I won't even talk about it. All I want in the memory of my relationship is all the beautiful and sweet ones, without any heartache or tears. Anyways, so much has happened up till the state that even I am at a loss for what to do. But then again, I'm already too tired to wonder what's going to happen. I've done my best and I have no regrets on my part. God knows, I know, she knows. Whatever happens next, only me and her will decide. I still love her so much as always and no matter what, she will always be in my heart. I love you, Queeny. I really do.