I'm still wondering, is starting this business a good idea? I watch as the time ticks away on the clock, getting nearer to 5pm. Yes, I want my life back. I want that happy family I once knew back. I want to get back at everyone that looked down on my family when we went bust. I am a man fuelled by revenge. Anger drives me. A painful past motivates me. Deep down, I am nothing but a tortured soul. I don't really expect that I would take over the company that has employed ( or should I say enslaved? ) my dad for 12 years, but the opportunity came knocking, and it only comes once. I know it's a risk. But it's a risk I'll take.
And for myself, I'm not that good in studies, technically I don't even like studying and I damn well know it's fucking difficult to get a job without a bloody Foreign Cert or Uni cert and I know I'm never getting one. I know where I stand and what's my limits.
I want everyone to have a better life. I want you to have a better and higher paying job. I even tailored this damn job to your needs. Sometimes, I wonder, am I treating you so good up till the extent that I am spoiling you?
You tell me that if I gain something, I will sure lose something. Are you telling me that if I make it in business, I will lose you? While just the other day you told me you'll support me no matter what and wait till the day I wear the ring on your finger and ask you to be my wife? Which one do you want? I'm hurt and confused and maybe even abit angry. All I want is for us to have a great family life together. I wan you to be happy and loved. I wan Kenneth to grow up in a proper environment. I have us to enjoy life. And all these need money. No one can survive on just Love alone. Reality is harsh. But I just hope you'll be strong for us. I don't wish to get disappointed.
I love you laopo. And I really do.
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