There's just so much to say....I don't know where to start. Let's just start from now and backtrack. Sometimes I wonder, maybe I'm making you feel bored of me. Maybe I'm putting too much love into this r/s that make you feel under pressure and in the end, tired. I'm trying to give my best to you, I hope you know that. Like what I said, I can't really give you anything, just my love and care for you.
Probably, I'm just sick with my life. I start getting into disagreements more frequently with my parents. Just feel my life with them is falling apart. I don't like this family anymore. I just hate the incessant quarrels, the comparisions, everything. To them, I'm just nothing. Other's sons are always much better off than me. I can't be bothered anymore. I'm just living in a family that is no longer my own, nothing but a burden to them.
Yet again last night you said break. Am I really that bad? Do you just feel that tired of me? Maybe you're right. Maybe I should ask myself why I love you so much. You say it's because you're my first, but you know that isn't the reason. I just love you and I don't know how to explain it. It's not that I can't live without you, it's just that I don't even want to try. Every night I will dream about you, and everytime you're not with me I start missing you.
You say we won't have a future, and that I'm just an ordinary guy. And I'm out to prove you wrong. Sometimes I think about your past, and everything you said to me about it, and what you do, and I wonder to myself. Why? Why you? Why must this happen to you? But I know, as long as you are with me, I won't let anyone hurt you ever again. You are my princess, my everything and maybe, the only person left that still loves me.
I love you dear, and trust me, you will always be mine.